We wont be sad, we'll just be angry until we die.

I am doing my best to be kind to myself. I’ve dug myself out of the grave that my life had become, but now I am confused. I’ve had this situation before. I should have left her in the park and not wasted my time. So i want to do that for real this time but I know that it would be an overreaction. I think the difference should be my mentality about the situation, and not becoming lifeless disillusioned and uncaring again. Am I even capable of moving past this? Yes. It’s just that a large part of the new me is also suggesting very loudly to do what I never had the balls to do last time. tbh I think either way it doesn’t matter. My life doesn’t revolve around being with somebody to make me feel like I matter anymore. But I would really like a sign for what to do next.