Can a liminal space be you in a Harris teeters parking lot in your car after running into the store inthe last five minutes it’s open to get some food for lunches cause you’re about to go into tech and the store decided today to close an hour earlier than you thought so you didn’t get everything you want and now it’s downpouring so you’re waiting it out cause in the three plus years you’ve owned your car you haven’t once replaced the wind shield wipers and they suck in the rain and you don’t want to die and you can feel yourself slipping into another depressive episode even though you feel like you just clawed yourself out of your last one and on top of all of that you are dangerously falling face first into a crush on someone you’ve met like once and yet they’re consuming all your thoughts but you’re also unsure if it’s a crush or just gender envy but it could also be both and today’s your moms birthday so you called her and wished her a happy birthday and also feel guilty for not doing more but knowing you did not have the mental capacity to do more but also are trying to distance yourself from them in prep for coming out at some point but like why do I even need to come out I don’t think I’ll ever find someone
