alyesk✰︎

im so tired of being anxious all the time, its genuinely so draining, i worry my head out, paralysed with anxiety. im so tired

a burden to everyones life fr

i shud disappear

is this communication or is this me begging

what if i never recover

what if i never get better

sorry cant play rn, gotta focus on my suicidal ideation

i want to tear every single part of me until i am no longer myself anymore

multo that can never be satieted

ill be honest, i havent felt happiness since #that happened

there is no hope

life so bad that its so obvious to even the most distant strangers

idk man locking in and being in the flow state makes me relapse i think i shud j kms

i will get through it but i will NEVER get over it

what doesnt kill u, paralyses u

learning anatomy and physiology to find the best way to kms