darling

your boyfriend furrowed his brows at your response, clearly not getting the reaction he was expecting.

“just okay? babe, you’re kinda freaking me out right now.” he responded, hand beginning to nervously fiddle in his lap. you shifted from your lounging position on his living room couch, hands stilling from their previous action of petting layla.

you reached your hands up to cup jake’s cheeks, a soft smile gracing your features.

“baby, i’ll always support you in everything you want to do. i know how much you want to be an idol, and what kind of girlfriend would i be if i didn’t support your dream?” jake’s face relaxed at your words, tightness being replaced with a growing grin. “i’m so incredibly proud of you jake, please don’t think that i’d ever think otherwise.”

his smile was blazing in full force now, and he turned his head slightly to kiss your palm. your body warmed at his action.

“so you’re not mad at me?” he was still smiling, but you could detect the trace amount of anxiety in his tone.

“i’m so happy for you jake.” you leaned in to press a soft kiss to his lips, pulling away after a few seconds. a pout formed on his handsome face as you leaned away, and you couldn’t help but smile at the sight. “promise you won’t forget about me when you get all rich and famous?” you teased, bopping the tip of his nose with you index finger.

“how could i ever forget the most amazing girl in the world?”

-

“hey baby, how’s your week been?” you heard the shifting of sheets on the other side of the line, indicating that jake was laying down in bed at the moment.

“it’s been good, tiring as hell, but good all the same. how about you?” you could hear the fatigue in his voice, but that didn’t overshadow the contented tone he was also speaking with.

“boring without you here,” you pouted despite knowing fully that he couldn’t see your face. he laughed lightly, the delighted sound sending warmth through your veins.

“i miss you too baby.” the two of you were silent for a few moments. he had only been in korea for six months, but you missed him as if it had been a lifetime since you had seen each other. it was painful being away, but you were willing to deal with the distance if it meant that jake could pursue his dream.

“i miss you more.” you sighed, shifting so you could lay more comfortably on your bed. “so, anything interesting happening in the trainee world?” you changed the conversation, desperate to escape the slightly sad atmosphere that had been created.

“oh!” his voice filled with excitement, and you could practically hear the grin that was forming on his face. “they want me to be on a tv show!”

your jaw dropped, giddiness filling you veins as he shared the news.

“wait what! oh my god baby, that’s so exciting! what kind of show is it?” a wide smile spread across your face, and you couldn’t help but begin to bounce slightly where you sat.

“it’s a survival reality show, there’ll be 23 of us and we’ll all be competing to be able to debut with a group that’ll be put together on the show! isn’t that cool!” he was loud with joy, and you could imagine the way his body would be physically buzzing with jubilation.

“it’s incredible jake, oh my god i’m so proud of you.” you were breathless, heart filled with pride and excitement for your love. 

“i can’t believe that i’m already so close to achieving my dream already,” he breathed out, a soft ‘thud’ indicating his body plopping down onto his bed.

your heart clenched in a way that you never felt it before at his words. yes, you were so incredibly proud of him that you could barely express it with words. yes, you loved him more than you loved anything else. but there was something about having him work so hard toward his goals, him being so close to his dreams and you only being able to watch it through a screen that made your chest hurt. 

you wanted to be there with him. you wanted to support him through more than phone calls and text messages. you wanted to be there next to him, talking about his days on the couch and going on impromptu dates on the beach.

you felt your eyes prick with unwanted tears, which you promptly choked back so you didn’t worry jake.

“it’s crazy,” you hummed, miraculously stopping your voice from wavering. “and you deserve it more than anyone else.”

-

you felt as if you couldn’t breathe.

 your eyes watched the tv screen unmovingly, and you felt that if you stopped looking for even a second, you would miss it.

jake’s parents had invited you over to watch the finale of i-land with them, and you accepted without a second thought. you chatted comfortably with them as the finale played, watching with rapt attention at each perfectly excecuted performance.

but now it was the time to announce the members of the debut group, and the room was dead silent, all paying perfect attention to the screen as the host began to read off the debuting members.

“in fourth place and the second member to debut, ni-ki!” you took in a deep breath as you watched the young boy go still with shock as his name was announced, allowing a small smile to grace your features.

you were a fan of ni-ki, always enjoying his moments on screen. not to mention he was insanely talented; his dancing abilities were unmatched. ni-ki said his words of thanks, then the camera panned over to where the boy walked to stand with heeseung, the first member announced. 

then the dramatic music began playing again.

your stomach churned with anxiety as the screen showed the remaining contestants, all waiting anxiously to hear who the next member would be. you caught a quick glimpse of jake’s face, and while he seemed collected on the outside, you knew that he was about to collapse with nerves.

hell, you were about to puke with how nervous you were for him, you couldn’t even begin to imagine how your boyfriend felt.

the host began to speak, describing a hard-working trainee with a lot of talent and passion. with each word you felt yourself moving closer to the edge of your seat, fingers twitching with anxiety.

you gave him every vote you had. he gave his everything to make it as far as he did.

“the member ranked third, and the third debut member is-”

please, please, please let him debut. he did so well and he deserves it so much, he deserves to debut, to be on the world stage, to share his heart and talent and love with the world, please let it be him-

“jake.”

your heart stopped.

“oh my god, oh my god!” you began to scream, your joyful yelling mixing with the glee of his parents. 

tears began to prick at your eyes, this time tears of pure joy. you watched as jake doubled over in emotion, clearly shocked by the announcement of his name. relief and happiness was evident on his features, and you could tell that he was trying desperately not to cry. 

he did it, he did it, he did it.

you were on your feet, watching tearfully as your incredible boyfriend made a short speech and made his way over to where the rest of the debut members were standing.

he’s debuting. your boyfriend, your jake, was going to become a star. he was a full fledged member of enhypen, and god, you didn’t know you could feel so much pride and love in your body.

the host began to move on to announcing the next debut member, but you were on such a high that you could barely pay attention. jake’s parents swept you up in a hug, and even layla was barking in joy as the reality that jake was debuting finally began to settle in. 

you sat back down on the couch, body warm with pride as you finally managed to focus on the rest of the live show, the remainder of the program went by in a flash, and you would be lying if you said you didn’t shed a few tears as you watched jake and the rest of his new members group hug under large letters that spelled ‘enhypen’.

the final credits for i-land began to roll, and you wasted no time in whipping your phone out and searching for jake’s contact. your thumb hovered over the ‘call’ button, but your rational side fought against your elated one, saying that he would probably be incredibly busy right at the current moment. 

you swiped out of the phone app, instead opting to text him a message that he can see when the chaos dies down.

you: i can’t believe i’m dating a real idol now! i always knew you could do it. congratulations on debuting baby, i’m so proud of you, and i love and miss you more than words can say <3

-

“hi babe!” you greeted as ther facetime call connected, revealing jake’s gorgeous face on your screen. you surveyed your screen intently, your smile slowly turning into a small frown. “oh, it looks like you’re busy right now, should i call later?”

there was a generous amount of commotion coming from jake’s end, and judging by the outfit, makeup, and hairstyle, it looked as if he was in the middle of some kind of shoot.

“oh no it’s okay, just let me grab my headphones and go somewhere quieter.” your screen only showed the top of jake’s forehead and his eyes, indicating that he was talking in a hushed voice directly into the speaker in an effort to speak over the noise.

it only look a minute for jake to put on his airpods and walk to a location with sigificantly less noise, and judging by the tiled walls and slight echo, you guessed he took refuge in a bathroom.

“babe seriously, i can call you when you’re back at your dorm.” you huffed, feeling guilty for taking him out of what seemed to be something important.

“no baby it’s alright, we’re just doing a photoshoot. they’re currently taking photos of jay, so i have some time to talk before i have to go,” he smiled, eyes soft as he stared at your pixelated face on his screen. “it’s really hectic out there, and seeing your beautiful face is the perfect thing to calm me down.”

your body warmed at his words, heart fluttering as it always did when jake spoke sweetly like that.

“so, what are you shooting for?” you asked, resting your head on your hand.

“ah that’s a surprise for now baby,” he smirked, and you pouted in response. you let out a groan, rolling over in your bed from your stomach onto your back.

“not even a little hint?” you pressed, albeit jokingly. you knew that some of the projects that jake was involved in were supposed to be kept under tight wraps, so you never held the fact that he kept parts of his career a secret against him.

“nope,” he popped the ‘p’ sound at the end, making you let out a little giggle. “you’ll just have to see when the photos come out, but i promise you’ll love it.” he gave you a little wink at the end, and you smiled widely at that.

you let out a sigh. “i guess i’ll just wait like every other dedicated engene out there,” you joked, pouting your lips yet again.

“oh baby you know you’re not just a fan,” he looked at you with the softest of gazes. “you’re my girl.”

your cheeks blazed at his brazen comment, and you couldn’t felt the fond sigh that left your lips.

“god, i miss you.” your voice was barely above a whisper, but by the way that jake’s eyes began to glisten, you knew he heard your words. 

“i miss you too baby.” he replied, words soft and somber. “i wish-”

a few loud knocks interrupted him, jake’s head whipping in the direction of the sound. you could hear someone speak loudly from the other side of the door in rushed korean, and you took that as your queue to begin wrapping up your call.

jake yelled a few words in korean to the person waiting for him, and then quickly returned his attention back to you.

“i’m so sorry baby, but i’ve gotta go. they finished up with jay early and apparently they pushed the schedule forward by an hour so everything has to go faster and -”

“jake.” you interrupted his incresingly frantic rambling, sending your clearly frazzled boyfriend the tenderest smile you could muster. “it’s okay, i understand. now go, you big idol.”

jake was visibly relaxed at your words, a smile beginning to grace his lips. “you’re the absolute best, i promise i’ll talk to you soon, okay?”

“bye babe, i love yo-” he hung up as you were finishing your sentence, causing all feelings of warmth to abruptly leave your body.

you pushed down your feelings of frustration and sadness, not wanting to dwell on it too much. jake was an idol now, he was infinitely busier than when he was a trainee, much less than when he was back home. you couldn’t blame him for hanging up so unceremoniously.

ignore it y/n, he didn’t mean to and you know that. he has more important things to do than talk to you now.

you sighed and curled up in your bed, burying your head into your pillow. but despite your best efforts to ignore your disappointment, but one thought began to plague your mind incessantly.

he didn’t say i love you back.

-

you’re hurting.

it’s been a week since you last heard from jake; the longest you’ve gone without talking to him in the two years you’ve been together. and during the weeks before that, the most you could get out of him was a bland, rushed texted once a day at best.

yes, you understood he was busy, especially with the group’s first comeback looming over his head. but he had always made time for you, even if it was just five minutes, ever since he became a trainee. and for him to simply begin to ghost you like he was, well, it hurt like hell.

you had been a kind, supportive, loving, and understanding girlfriend throughout his entire journey, but now, as you sat in your room on your two year anniversary, you reached your limit. 

a small cake with the words ‘happy anniversary’ written on it sat lonely on your desk, your phone void of any messages or calls from your boyfriend on what was supposed to be an incredibly joyous day. 

you checked your phone once again, sighing as you still had new notifications, and the clock just hit midnight.

now it was official, jake had forgotten your anniversary.

tears began to burn at the corners of your eyes, tears that you had held back all day due to your foolish hope that he would acknowledge your existence on a date that was so important to the two of you. 

you finally let yourself succumb to your emotions, tears rolling down your face in bold streaks. it took every bit of strength you had to not sob loudly and uncontrollably, and you bit your lip as your body began to shake with emotion.

anger, disappointment, sadness.

you felt so many things that your brain could hardly process it, but there was one thing that you knew for sure.

you had hit your breaking point.

you: hi babe, happy two year anniversary, i love and miss you more than anything. i know you’re incredibly busy right now, but call me when you get a chance, okay? i love you <3 sent ten hours ago

you: we need to talk. sent one minute ago

-

it was a beautiful morning when you woke up, almost beautiful enough to make you forget the painful events that had happened the night before. but your bliss was short lived as you saw the bags under your eyes and the slight puffiness of your features from crying in the black reflection of your phone screen.

you sighed, taking a few moments to calm yourself before tears would make yet another unwanted appearance. you closed your eyes and counted to three, finally plucking up the courage to turn on your phone.

and there it was, a multitude of messages from none other than your ghost of a boyfriend, along with a few missed calls.

jake <3: holy shit baby i’m so sorry about yesterday

 i promise i didn’t mean to forget about our anniversary, everything has been so crazy lately and yesterday we had so much stuff to do i’m so sorry

missed call from jake <3

baby please pick up, i understand that you’re mad but please let me explain

(2) missed calls from jake <3

y/n please baby, i love you so much i never meant for this to happen

(3) missed calls from jake <3

baby, please. i’m so sorry, i promise it’ll never happen again. please pick up?

(4) missed calls from jake <3

baby?

the last message was from only a few minutes ago and it was relatively early in the morning, so you assumed that jake was up and free to talk. you took a deep breath, and pressed on the ‘call’ icon.

the phone rang only for a few seconds before jake picked up.

“baby,” he breathed, clearly relieved that you had decided to call him. the mere sound of his voice made tears prick at the corners of your eyes, and you bit your lip in an effort to keep them at bay. “i can’t even start to tell you how fucking sorry i am about yesterday. our scheduele was so packed that i barely had time to even think about breathing, and our anniversary completely slipped my mind.”

he continued to ramble, clearly set on making things right between the two of you. “you’re probably so mad at me, and i can’t blame you for that. i’m so sorry baby, everything has been so crazy for me and i know you know that but i love you so much and i’m so angry at myself for forgetting and god i’m so sorry and-”

“jake.”

his panicked chattering came to a clear stop at the sound of your shaking voice.

“i can’t do this anymore.”

it felt as if the earth was shattering around you as the dreaded words left your lips, and you allowed your tears to freely roll down your face. your voice was barely above a whisper, but it felt as if it rang as loud as a bomb.

“what?” he sounded so broken, so small, and it took everything in you not to take back your previous statement and drown him in love. but you couldn’t. 

“i can’t do this jake, i don’t think we should be together anymore.” you spoke louder, cursing at how your voice wavered and cracked. jake made a wounded noise from the other end.

“w-why are you saying that baby? is it because of yesterday? i promise i really didn’t mean to forget our anniversary, and i promise it’ll never happen again, but please, don’t do this.” his voice broke, and you could tell that he was beginning to cry. your heart clenched painfully at the sound, but you somehow managed to summon the courage to continue.

“jake, it’s not just because of yesterday.” you paused, trying to string your thoughts into coherance."i just—i just can’t do this anymore jake. it’s all too much.”

“w-what do you even mean by that baby? is it because of me? i’m so sorry that i made you feel that way, i promise i’ll make it up to you-”

“no jake!” your voice came our much louder than intended, causing you to wince. you took a few deep breaths to calm yourself down. “i feel like i’m holding you back. do you realize just how big you guys are now? i see you on the charts, on youtube, on twitter. you’re living your dream, jake, and i am just a part of your past that we were in denial over letting go.”

“do you realize how hard it is not being there for you? watching you reach for the stars while i’m stuck on the ground? seeing you win these awards, be this big idol that you’ve always dreamed of when the only way i can support you is through a phone screen? jake, it’s been over a week since we’ve last talked. do you realized how much it hurt? not hearing from you, not getting even a single lousy text? your career comes first, and i’m just another thing for you to worry about on top of that.” your voice began to crescendo, every single dark and deep emotion you’ve felt since jake had left finally coming to the surface.

“we’ve been fooling ourselves, pretending like we could work out with you a million miles away, being an idol. you don’t have time for a relationship, jake, and all we’ve been doing is hurting ourselves. it’s not fair, to you or me.”

you were crying hard at this point, breathing heavily as your spiel came to an end. 

“do you-” he paused abruptly, as if uttering the next words brought him physical pain. “do you not love me anymore?”

you choked back a sob at his question, squeezing your eyes shut and running a hand through your hair.

“no jake, i still love you. hell, i love you so much that it hurts. but do you know why i’m doing this?” a few sniffles sound from jake’s end, but he otherwise stays silent. “because if you love someone, you should let them go.”

he openly sobs at your statement, a noise that will permanently be engraved in your mind and heart forever. 

“b-but what if i don’t want you to let me go? y/n please,” he says between sobs, trying desperately to regain his composure.

“jake,” you try to make your tone soft and soothing, and you can tell it works as you hear him begin to calm down at the sound of it. “you deserve to pursue your dream without anyone holding you back. and i-” you paused, not sure if you should continue to say what you were going to say. but you steeled yourself, knowing that it was something that both you and him needed to hear.

“and i deserve someone who is there for me, no matter what.” 

the silence that settled between you two was deafening.

“oh.” he whispered, defeated and finally accepting of your words. 

“jake, i’m so sorry,” you whimpered, wiping away at your tears. “it just has to be this way.” you waited with bated breath for his response.

“i—i know.” his broken voice slashed through your heart like a knife. “i just wish it could be different.”

“me too,” you sighed, tears slipping down your face in steady streaks. “me too.”

“can i just say something before we make it official?” jake asks, sniffling a bit.

“sure.”

“i-” he paused, seemingly gathering his thoughts. “i’m sorry it had to be this way. i’m sorry it all had to come to this. i wish-” you could imagine him, his face twisted in pain, tears streaming down his face. it all made you feel nauseous.

“i wish that it could be different between us. you’re my everything, y/n, you always have been and you always will be. you’ve always been so kind, so supportive, so understanding. you deserve better than me, you deserve someone who can show you off and care for you in ways i can’t anymore. i’m sorry-” you squeezed your eyes shut, feeling the cracks in your heart deepen with each word.

“and i’ll always love you, no matter what.” his speech ended, and it took every bit of strength in you body not to cave into his words of adoration, to not take every word of goodbye back in an instant.

“you’ll always be in my heart jake,” you whispered with a shaking voice. you slowly pulled your phone away from your ear, hovering your thumb over the ‘end’ icon.

“goodbye.”

the phonecall ended, and you began to sob heavily the moment it did, your devastating reality finally making itself permanent.

and four-thousand miles away, curled up in his bunk, jake was doing the same.

“they what?!” jay’s eyes went wide under his wire-rimmed lenses, eyebrows raised in disbelief.

“you heard what i said jay,” you huffed, throwing yourself next to him on his bunk. “your sneaky little band mates have a bet on when we would get together.” you placed your head in his lap, feeling the small bits of embarrassment and anger that had built up inside of you at the situation dissipate as his long fingers began to play with your hair.

“how did you find this out?” jay asked, annoyance melting away as he failed to hold back a smile when you let out a contented hum as his fingers ran across your scalp. 

“jake and sunghoon are horrible whisperers,” you told, letting out a light laugh. “i asked them where you were and while i was leaving the room i heard them say something about 20,000 won, you and me, and us being hopeless pining losers.”

jay laughed, head tossing back with his eyes disappearing slightly as he did so. your heart skipped a few beats as you looked up at him, a warmth spreading through your veins.

“on a scale of one to ten, how mad do you think they’ll be when we tell them we’ve been together for two months now?” a smirk spread across his face, and you couldn’t help but giggle.

yes, you and jay had officially gotten together two months ago. both of you weren’t exactly keeping your relationship a secret per se, it was just that you both didn’t enjoy pda and his members never asked whether or not you were together. 

you and jay had an inexpiable closeness, so it was normal for the rest of the band to see you guys sitting just a tad too close on the couch, hands only centimetres from each other, or his head leaning on your shoulder.

there was also the fact that the rest of the band loved to talk, and both you and jay were apprehensive of the possibility that someone could blurt out your secret during a live. 

“hm,” you raised your hand to your chin and began stroking it in thought. “i’d say a solid 8.”

jay nodded in agreement, taking a small section of your hair and beginning to braid it as thoughts began to run through his brain.

“do you think it’s time we told them? i wanna see their faces when they realize they all lost this bet of theirs.”

you raised your eyebrow. “is that the only reason you wanna tell them?” there was a teasing glint in your eyes, and jay responded by rolling his own.

“and because i want them to know you’re mine and i’m yours,” he paused, hands stilling in your hair for a few moments. “and i want to be able to hold and kiss you in front of them without having to hide.”

“that’s what i thought,” you sang, a smile on your face as you sat up from your position on his lap. jay lamented for a moment in the fact that his near-perfect braid sat half done on your head, but his disappointment was immediately gone as you pressed a kiss to his cheek. “i agree, let’s tell them now.”

“now as is now or now as in later?” he asked, pushing his hair back with one hand and using the other to grab you by the waist and pulling you onto his lap. 

your back was now to his chest, heart blooming in content as he started to press gentle kisses to the side of your neck. you laughed softly and leaned into his touched, eyes closing as you relished in the sensation of his lips on your skin. 

“i guess later would work better, hm?” you sighed, head tilting slightly to allow him better access to the smooth expanse of your skin. jay pulled away from your neck, and you nearly let out a whine at the loss of contact.

“you read my mind.”

with that he placed his hand on your cheek, turning your head so his lips could finally meet yours. the kiss was soft and slow, but filled you with such a warmth that you felt as if your heart would explode. 

you shifted your body to face him more, deepening the kiss as your legs dangled over the edge of the bunk. jay’s hands settled on your waist, hiking up your shirt a bit as his thumbs drew soft circles into your skin.

he pulled away yet again, the two of you in a breathless daze as he sent you a heart-melting smile.

“you’re so beautiful,” he murmured, gazing adoringly at your flushed features. he gently squeezed at your hips, hands traveling so they rested on the skin of your lower back.

“and you’re so very handsome.” you grinned cheekily, raising your hand to brush a few strands of freshly dyed black hair out of his face. your fingers lingered for a moment over his temple before settling on his cheek. he leaned into your touch and smiled, causing your heart to flutter in ways it never had before. 

jay leaned back in and pecked your lips once, twice, three times; enjoying the way that your smile grew with each touch that your mouth made with his. he pulled you in for another kiss, this time long and sensual, sending a shiver up your spine and butterflies to fly rampant in your stomach.

“i love you so much,” he muttered into the kiss, not wanting to break the intimate contact that he was taking much delight in.

“i love you too-”

“jay hyung, jake hyung was wondering if- OH MY GOD MY POOR INNOCENT EYES!” you and jay were stopped dead in your tracks as jungwon burst into the room without warning, clearly not expecting to see the two of you in such a compromising position.

it was as if a freeze ray had hit you and your boyfriend, because instead of pushing off of him (as one would normally do), you stayed perched on jay’s lap, too stunned to move a single muscle. jay was the exact same, hands still placed unmovingly underneath your shirt.

you were planning on telling the others about your relationship, but this was definitely not how you wanted them to find out.

jungwon’s loud exclamation had caught the attention of the others, who almost immediately appeared in the doorway as well. one by one their jaws dropped, taking in the sight of messy hair, swollen lips and flushed complexions.

“what the hell?” 

sunghoon’s voice rang clear in your ears, the black haired boy taking the liberty of shoving his hand over ni-ki’s eyes in order to maintain the innocence of their youngest.

“uh,” for all the languages that jay knew, he was at a complete loss for words as his eyes flickered rapidly from you to his bandmates. 

“just ‘best friends’ my ass,” sunoo scoffed, folding his arms across his chest and pouting.

it was then that you realized that you should definitely get the hell off of jay’s lap, prompting you to shove your boyfriend back and hop off of him, choosing instead to sit on the edge of the bed.

“well, hey guys?” you offered an awkward smile, sending a little wave to the shocked group of boys hovering in the doorway. 

“i just caught you smacking faces with jay hyung and that’s all you have to say?” jungwon exclaimed, eyes still as wide as ever. 

“uh, yeah?” you were still unsure of what to say in the very awkward situation that you had caught yourself in, and jay had seemingly turned to stone next to you, so he was being no help at all.

the boys all groaned collectively, and you’re pretty sure that sunghoon face-palmed with the hand that wasn’t still covering ni-ki’s innocent eyes.

“wait, so are you guys dating now?” jake’s voice had an undertone of excitement, laced with genuine curiosity. the others’ shock was also wearing off, and they instictually began to lean in closer to hear better.

not wanting to reveal this by yourself, you elbowed jay lightly, finally knocking him out of his stupor. he looked at you with confusion, and you quickly pulled him in to whisper into his ear.

“he asked if we’re dating now,” you explained quietly, and he nodded in understanding.

he cleared his throat. “yes, we’re dating.”

the room erupted with noise at jay’s confirmation, a mixture of cheering, congratulations, and general sounds of excitement. you couldn’t help but laugh at the sight, your boyfriend taking the opportunity to snake his arm around your waist and pull you back onto his lap. his chin came to rest of your shoulder, eyes glistening fondly as his bandmates voiced their elation at the confirmation of your relationship.

“wait!” sunghoon’s voice cut clear through the sounds, and the room silenced almost immediately. “when did you two get together?”

their eyes all locked onto you and jay, and if you thought that the tension in the room was stifling earlier, it was nothing compared to right now. every single gaze was locked onto your form (even ni-ki was staring, after managing to pry sunghoon’s hand off of him during the commotion earlier), and it seemed like they were all holding their breaths in anticipation.

you shared a glance with jay, having a quick telepathic moment as you stifiled back a smirk.

“two months ago.”

it took a few moments for the information to sink into their brains after hearing yours and jay’s synchronised words, but after they had processed what you had just said, all hell broke loose.

jake was yelling incoherently, slumped dramatically in the doorway at his loss. sunoo and ni-ki were in a similar state of mind, while the others had began to lament in ways that were as equally dramatic.

“two months?!”

“are you serious?”

“wait, does this mean i lost?”

“how the hell did you hide this from us for two whole months?”

the noise quieted down at heeseung’s question, and six pairs of eyes were now turned towards you and jay yet again.

jay shrugged. “you never asked.”

more yelling. again. if you were being frank, your ears were beginning to hurt with the amount of chaos happening right in front of you. and it was clear that jay was at the end of his patience, judging by the way his face was beginning to screw up in annoyance.

“oi! calm down you guys!” his voice yelled above the commotion, the members falling silent as they caught wind of jay’s irritation. once he realized that the boys had finally reached a state of calm, his features and voice softened. “we’re sorry we didn’t tell you all sooner, we just wanted to make sure we were both secure in our relationship before telling anyone. we also didn’t want to risk anyone accidentally spilling our secret, but genuinely, we’re sorry about not telling you all.” you nodded in agreement with your boyfriend’s words, carefully surveying the boys for their reactions.

jake sighed, standing up straight and eyes softening. “we understand.” the rest of the members nodded along with his sentiment. “being in a relationship is tough as is, and given the fact that we’re idols, it probably makes it even harder.”

“thank you guys for understanding, it really means a lot to us.” you smiled, lacing your fingers together with jay’s from where his hand rested on your thigh. the room’s atmosphere began to relax, returning to it’s normal cheeriness that it normally was when the boys were around.

“oh! there’s one more thing,” you piped up, and the boys all froze in their place, slowly turning to look at you. “if i catch you guys making any more bets on our relationship, i will personally throw away all of the ramen in this household and put glue in your shampoo.” pure fear made its way onto their faces at your words, and an odd sense of satisfaction settled in your body at the sight.

“that’s my girl.” jay smirked at his members, before looking at you with sickeningly sweet eyes. you pressed a quick kiss to his cheek, relishing in the way it made the other boys begin to fake gag and cover their eyes at your now open affection.

“and that’s our queue to leave,” heeseung called out, beginning to herd the rest of the boys out of the room. soon enough you and jay were the only ones left in the bedoroom, the yelling of the boys becoming more faint with each second. 

heeseung began to close the door, but not before poking his head in one final time.

“just a quick reminder that all of us do sleep in here, including our dearest baby niki, so if you do anything dirty here you’ll be desecrating the sleeping place of a precious child so-”

“aish, just get out of here!” jay yelled, throwing a pillow at the doorway. heeseung’s eyes widened and he quickly shut the door, missing the flying pillow by only a millisecond.

once you were truly alone, the two of you sat in silence for a few moments, mulling over the chaotic ten minutes you had just experienced.

“so, that just happened like that?”

i am 18 years old, and it makes me incredibly uncomfortable to be writing about minors in a romantic way. while i love the two very very much, i am not fully comfortable writing about them, ESPECIALLY in a sexual/non-platonic way.

so please do not send requests with the two as the love interests, as they will go ignored or the prompt will be changed to be about an older member. 

HOWEVER, they will be included in ot7 posts and have their own writings, but will be written as nothing more than a best friend. in ot7s, the prompt will be modified for the two to be platonic rather than romantic, or if the prompt is more suggestive/has heavy romantic tones, they will not be included at all. i’m not going to be participating in the sexualization of minors as i am an adult.

I WILL BE writing about the hyung line + sunoo! while sunoo is considered part of the maknae line, i am older than him only by a few months so it feels less weird for me to be writing about him in a romantic manner.

JUST TO MAKE THINGS CLEAR, I WILL WRITE ABOUT JUNGWON AND NI-KI, JUST NOT IN A ROMANTIC MANNER. ANYTHING WRITTEN ABOUT THEM WILL BE STRICTLY PLATONIC.