Journeyman

A friend asked me, "why haven't you taken that bookkeeping exam before? Are you afraid to fail? Or you just don't have what it takes to qualify in that exam?" --he continued while bragging me his whatever-that-is(certificate, i guess).

Actually, it's not a question of being scared to fail or having the right qualifications for the exam. Frankly speaking, I didn't even learned 3/4 of what was taught in my first basic accounting subject. For the remaining 1/4, I only tried my best to understand it myself and i still don't even know how the hell I passed that subject(sometimes I regret passing it). And it took me a long time before i fully understood every concept and logic of the subject matter.

By then I realized, I've narrowed my vision in a single field without assessing that i have broader options and possibilities ahead of me. And that alone is one of my biggest regrets.

I may have failed a couple of times in my major subjects but I didn't let it distract me. Most of my grades are not something I could brag about but it's something I can be proud of. I admit, I'm kinda weak at some points and I'd always try my best to fill up that void.

Kung talagang masama at walang hiya lang akong tao, baka marami na talaga akong pinahiya sa publiko. Sa harap ng maraming tao, diyan ka makakarinig ng mga ipokritong kasagutan na ang sarap ipamukha sa kanila kung gaano sila ka-plastik. Sa publiko, makakarinig ka ng mga kasinungalingang nakabuo ng "pagkakaibigan", mga pagmamalinis na nagawang "humubog" ng katauhan ng isang tao, mga salitang "lilinlangin" ka sa kung ano talaga sila.

Pero isa sa talagang pumutol ng "pisi" ko at kung saan nagpintig ang taenga ko, ay nung nakarinig ako ng isang pakitang-tao na pagmamalasakit. Nasasabi nila na, oo, nag-aalala sila. Hindi nila alam kung bakit nagkakaganun. Hindi nila alam kung may problema ba o may pinagdadaanan. Hindi nila alam. Wala silang alam.

Nasabi ko na lamang sa sarili ko, nag-aalala nga siguro sila. Pero nakuha ba nilang pagmalasakitan ang tinatawag nilang "kaibigan"? Naisip ba nilang magtanong kung ano ang problema? O di naman kaya'y ialok na kahit kaunting tulong man lang? Kung ginawa nga ba talaga nila iyan, sila na lamang sa sarili nila ang makakaalam.

Ang mga katanungang na iyan ay minsan nang nagpaluhod sa akin sa lupa at nagturo ang kahalagahan ng pagpapakumbaba. Iyan ang mga bagay nagturo sa akin kung paano magpahalaga sa mga tunay na tao, sa mga tunay na kaibigan. Kung ano talaga ako sa likod ng aking maskara, tanging ang mga taong tunay na nagkaroon ng malasakit lamang ang makakaalam.

"LIBRA - The Lame One (September 23 to October 22)  Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, funny and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with... you might end up crying. Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent. Faithful friends to the end. Can hold a grudge for years. Libras are someone you want on your side. Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics. Very creative. A hopeless romantic."

source: facebook

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We came across each other this morning (01/21/13). Not just once but twice. It's pretty uncommon, really... But still, I can't help it but to smile and smile and smile every time I think about it. I guess, wala na nga yata talaga yung pagkailang tulad ng dati. Minsan, siya pa ang unang babati at talagang tatapat pa sa harap ko kapag hindi ko agad siya napansin. Medyo madalas na kami magkasalubong sa hallway, syempre magh-"hi" naman ako. Hindi pwedeng hindi. Hahaha! It's been a year and half or two na yata since I dared na ligawan siya. Yun talaga, EXTREME ang pagkailang. But now, casual na talaga. Mas nakakapag-usap pa kami. It's pretty much better this way.

So, I heard you're good at talking about someone behind their back? Another thing, I'm not sure if it's one of your expertise or if it's really your forte--Telling others something that should be only kept between you and the person you speak of, was it? Or vice-versa?

It leaves me wondering. You're actually a good person! Wow! Beat the crap out of me. I'd give you a credit for that. Your judgments and remarkable words of sh*t are truly fascinating! You're so full of surprises! Who would have thought you could actually determine what's right and wrong? Imagine, you already knew that your companion did something "unlikely" and still tolerate that "*sshole". That's what you call "friendship". You're bestfriends anyway and that makes you the "Jack*ss" and the other is the "*sshole".

I see the care. Really. You're the most "HONEST", "APPRECIATIVE", "SINCERE", and "WONDERFUL" person we've EVER met. You clearly deserved to be where you are right now. To be with your...*ehem*..."friends for keeps". You have the same attitudes anyway (EXCEPT those 2 or 3 person you are with. I pity them but at the same time, I salute them for their patience and understanding for the most of you).

It may sounds fake, but I just hope every unlikable and ill-mannered thing you did to us will not come back to you worse than you could ever imagine.

As for the good things and favors you did for us, you have my sincerest thank you...

Feast of MARIA ASSUMPTA

August 15 will always be a very special day for us.

For this day is the Feast of Our Lady of the Assumption. Feast of Maria Assumpta Seminary.

Our beloved Alma Mater. For 4 years I've been in the seminary, studying, trying to answer my "calling".

And for 4 years our brotherhood started and day by day, it's getting stronger and unbreakable.

So many memories.

So many moments that we all want to experience again. We may be separated but our hearts will always be one with our beloved Seminary.

While fixing my laptop and organizing all the files in the different folders, I accidentally found the letter I wrote for her.

Nakakatawa lang. Hindi ko naman aakalaing gagawa ako ng ganung bagay. Ni hindi ko dine-delete yung file mismo. Weird. It's been almost two years nung tinangka ko siya ligawan. Imagine? Nakaaya ko siya sa isang date? LoL. My goodness. Bilis ng araw. We never really talk to one another. Hindi naman sa bitter pero nakakahiya din kasi.

She's a girl who deserves all the credits for the efforts and heart she's putting in her studies. Kudos to her.

Swerte ng lalaking makakatuluyan nito. Maganda na, mabait pa at matalino. San ka pa? Malas din nung lalaki kasi hindi yata marunong magluto si Lara. Hahaha! Ni magsaing daw sablay pa. Hahaha!! (Atin-atin lang 'to ha.)