LET'S PUT A SMILE ON THAT FACE !!!

seemingly unsure liquids water bending suspended in the air like false smiles walking pasted on the many faces like copies of fake emotions comprised with unrelenting enthusiasm spasiming like cackling mental patients aching to be released from bandage , my toxic play ground I sit and display my macob performance applauding from lifeless corpses glaring alluring me to join them on the hellish thrill ride ,, I cry out only thing echoing back is regret offering me a false sense of security wrapping me in insecurities . I see them wiping their eyes as they die laughing screaming insults piercing with sultry eyes my heart stops my walls fall and collapse , before me lying at my feet tangles with promises and empty stomachs ready to engulf me with gluttony of hunger and starvation , i see before me my hops and dreams saying you had the power now we die at your feet . written in old blood brown and staind a letter of recommendation interest quiet whispers what have we done to deserve this .

how do you find peace with someone who's always talking about constantly being busy , missing them when all you want is a place in their schedule , slowly drifting away like a leaf falling from a tree barely hanging on gripping to what little bit of hope you have left pleuged with a continuous experience of desperate silent screams , soul crying out for a touch of gentle kindness , a thirsty tongue craving the soft kiss of their lips. finger tips warm breath smell of their skin against yours , you don't you accept it in silence knowing no matter how much you want it , it won't ever be listening to their sweet voice in your head when it's all you have left broken heart feeling separated by far distances while subsequently feeling like you're falling to pieces

they fall until its out in the open relentless it's unconvincing every drop makes it easy to smile panic stricken devastating impractical the mirror reflects misery, , wiping away moving on through the day slowly caressing the face broken glass , satisfaction gut wrenching it feels like thin razors cutting in two splitting we fight through it familiar smells attract the feeling piercing , we suffer alone craddled by its obsessive company not leaving us our echos spring fourth the obvious knowing no matter how hard we try every one leaves us knowing we're just old memories left in th dust , positivity they tell us to be that it will pass a peace of mind is hard to grasp , the eyes are windows to the soul letting go feels so cold shivering but we take in stride conventional wisdom warms us wrapping us in its arachnophobic legs around our hearts tangling it's web of lies forcing us to look into its eight eyes giving into its spell instructing to dance its macob performance , weak left with no choice it sings us into a dark seductive cacooon of insecurities draining us of our pureities complection turns pale our soul leaves us empty a husk of our former selves pulling us down into a deeper agonizing truth , no one is ever around we come into this world alone we leave it cursed with our loved ones voices mimicking what was once there no more , depression isn't fair amusement part roller coaster a parade of toxicity nails on a chalk board scares appear on our sinew a whisper fills our ears. assuring us we won't be left in fear.