𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑳𝑳𝑨⭑.ᐟ

@bilswifee @chrepsi @gracie-eilish @bernardsbendystraws @lovelybils @drunkinyourbenz @viviansturns @peytonneilish @emerald3ilish @allyeilishh @bittersuitekim @wtfisagrape @sox-sucks @bills5lut @swiftsdifferent @redhickeys @sarahsturnn @abbystromboli @wannabebillies @bellieeilish @wannabebillies @tezzzzzzzz @ibrokeurheartbcuzubrokemine @st0nerlesb0 @foliverfalls @desiredlvr @mydarlingvivian @starheartstyles @starrii-sturns @dafaks-blog @bilsnolastname @bilssturns @lenorethegay @emiliesblosh @jointlesss @dragoneyelashart @crp5e @55sturn @charlixcxfavslut @emyscc @bilsbildo @jayjaywetforbils @grace-sturnz @e1lishsturniolo @pirate-baird @billieskitty @bambifemme @vyntagess @billsdollie @kittluzbills @billiesbabygirll @miss-oconnell @imhappierthanever @bitchesbrokenpromises @bluestriips @ashbills @megameatymatt @eeuni @n0vabug

𝐌𝐘 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐘 𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐘

-> in which chris gets his gf sonny angels

warnings: none i think!

They don’t know you, they won’t marry you, they won’t date you, they won’t fuck you and they won’t make you their baby mama. Like i be the first one to say ‘my husband’ when talking about Matt but obviously it’s a joke? Idgaf if Matt has a girlfriend id actually be happy if he’s happy. Like I say that actors in movies are ‘my man and my girl’…. I don’t mean it literally. Just mean I like them lmao but some of yall go toooo far!!!!! Feeling like you actually are dating them and they owe you explanation and actually getting jealous when they breathe near a woman is not normal!!!! Maybe talk to someone about it!!!! Go to therapy!!!!

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Apart from that I love this app sooo much yall are such good writers I could never🩵

(I’m I gonna get insulted? who knows.)

The fact this anon is in everyones inboxes spreading my best friend name around like shes a liar KNOWING she cant say too much because she has an NDA

But honey my inbox is OPEN

And I just so happen to be NDA FREE.

So why arent you posted up over here?! Whats the matter AFRAID OF THE TRUTH

Fucking bitch ass anons....

@dollysturniolo has not lied once. About anything. She didnt need to but SHE PROVED HERSELF TO ME. Because she knew I wasnt like you fucking idiots... she knew id listen and actually give her a fucking chance and because I did????

I GOT THREE MORE FUCKING IDIOTS IN MY LIFE I GET TO CALL BEST FRIENDS.

Yall are just missing out and mad.

i took these screenshots the moment i got them. apr 10th. and i've never answered or opened the inbox section ever again after this. seeing this makes my heart hurt. and the fact that these are only the few of the anons i've gotten. i've deleted them all. i won't be showing the screenshots. i consider them "too violent".

this isn’t dramatic. this isn’t a cry for attention. this is me being honest.

i’m exhausted — not the “i need a nap” kind of tired, but the kind that sits in your bones and doesn’t leave. the kind that makes everything feel heavier than it should.

i’ve been thinking about this for a while. maybe too long. i didn’t want to disappoint anyone, or seem like i was giving up. but the truth is… i’m done pretending i’m okay when i’m not.

real life has been punching me from every angle lately. i’ve been carrying so much, trying to be everything for everyone, and it’s taken a toll. emotionally, mentally, physically — i’m just… not okay. and tumblr, which used to be my safe space, doesn’t feel like that anymore. it’s loud. it’s demanding. and more than anything, it’s become unforgiving.

the hate i’ve received lately has been overwhelming. i thought i could brush it off. i thought i was strong enough to handle it. but it builds. it lingers. it makes you question your worth, your voice, your art. i log on and feel like i have to write, not because i want to, but because people expect me to. because if i don’t, i’ll be forgotten. replaced. criticized. and that pressure? it’s killing my love for something that once made me feel alive.

writing isn’t supposed to feel like this.

this isn’t what i want.

this isn’t who i want to be.

i’m taking a break. not just from posting, not just from writing, but from being here at all. i’m deleting the tumblr app. not forever, but indefinitely. i won’t delete this blog — this space means too much to me, and so do the people who made it feel like home. but i need to step away. completely. i need to figure out what peace looks like again.

to everyone who’s ever sent me a kind message, left a comment, reblogged my work with love, told me that something i wrote made them feel — thank you. seriously. thank you. your support carried me further than you’ll ever know. and i don’t take that for granted, not even for a second.

i’m still active on instagram, for those who want to stay in touch. it’s slower there. quieter. it feels easier to breathe. @/supermeirabros.

and right now, breathing is what i need.

but please, remember behind the screen... there's a person, with real feelings.

be kind to yourselves. check in with your people. let art be love again — not a performance.

i’ll be back when it feels right. until then...

@cherryswifeyy @dolliraez @zenithsturniolo @sturniolo-szn2 @scorpio1205 @ph3ebssturniolo @auttysturnz @conspiracy-ash @nickysturnss @eeyoresturnz @dolliraez @cherryswifeyy @scorpio1205 @luvs4matt @vanteguccir @jointlesss @leonorsbubble @leisturni @sturns-mermaid @mi-co-uk

“Hows your morning going?” I innocently get asked.

My response:

Then ill crash out.

“Hows your morning going?” I innocently get asked.

My response:

Then ill crash out.