Selfhating trying to get selfloving

My journey started at 1st of April 2012. That was the day I started a new chapter of my life when I realized if I was going the way I was on, I wouldn’t have had much left to live. I was 158 kgs (349 lbs) with a body fat of 42%. since that day I been eating clean and lifting heavy. Today (14th of June 2013) I dropped down to 118 kgs (260 lbs) with a body fat of 28.9%.

2) Peel the bananas and cut them into coins

3) Freeze the banana pieces for at least an hour or two.

4) Put the pieces into a food processor or blender.

5) Blend on high. Initially they will look crumbly and piecemeal. The mixture will probably get stuck a lot. Keep scraping down the bowl. Suddenly, as you keep blending, you will see a change.

6) The bananas turn creamy!

7) (Optional) Now is the time to add a scoop of peanut butter, honey, or anything else you care to mix in.