Joey, Indiana.

I’m tired, y’all… like really tired…

If you base your life decisions on money, you will never find happiness. I have watched my best friend completely destroy his life cause he is more worried about where the next dollar is coming from than fixing and keeping the relationships around him. I have told him this, but the narcissist in him thinks he is always in control. It’s sad.

Anyone ever wish a semi would just run you off the road, or to get robbed by gun point. No? Just me huh?

I really don’t know how much longer I can handle all this. I say that and then thing start to look better then everything comes crashing back down. I don’t know how many more time I can pull myself out of rock bottom. Not that anyone cares. This is just me screaming into the void.

I’m so close to buying a house. Hopefully it’s a fresh new start. I can’t keep living like this. And I won’t one way or another.