brodalisque

“When we started you said we’d both wind up dead. This is worse.”

“I won’t be around forever.”

Purgatory is literally a stakeout with your dead friend telling you you’ve got to stop being so suicidal (you are going to kill your self, you are going to let yourself be killed, you have known you were dead before the opportunity to die presented itself, you’ve been dead for years) you have to live because it’s what you do you have to keep going or else someone who is innocent will die or else you will fail your friends or else (you are going to choose to die and it’s coming soon)

he’s never breaking that cycle he has been trying to die being a hero since his father did when he was young, his whole life has been building to sacrificing himself there was never any other option never any other choice he has always known and wanted to die helping, saving, being Useful to someone else.

Good morning. I’m once again thinking about John half dead panicking in realization he never opened up the way he meant to, the way he /wanted/ to before Joss died and he DOES NOTHING ABOUT THIS AT ALL AND DIES STILL LOCKED INSIDE HIMSELF

doomscrolling thru the weather app

best friends to lovers gets such a bad rap but it’s actually so buzzy if they’re obsessed with each other in ways that are concerning for everyone else in their circle. BEFORE they even get together. like that hits like nothing else.

“When we started you said we’d both wind up dead. This is worse.”

“I won’t be around forever.”

Purgatory is literally a stakeout with your dead friend telling you you’ve got to stop being so suicidal (you are going to kill your self, you are going to let yourself be killed, you have known you were dead before the opportunity to die presented itself, you’ve been dead for years) you have to live because it’s what you do you have to keep going or else someone who is innocent will die or else you will fail your friends or else (you are going to choose to die and it’s coming soon)

he’s never breaking that cycle he has been trying to die being a hero since his father did when he was young, his whole life has been building to sacrificing himself there was never any other option never any other choice he has always known and wanted to die helping, saving, being Useful to someone else.

Good morning. I’m once again thinking about John half dead panicking in realization he never opened up the way he meant to, the way he /wanted/ to before Joss died and he DOES NOTHING ABOUT THIS AT ALL AND DIES STILL LOCKED INSIDE HIMSELF