Jon

(Trigger warning: Anorexia, self-harm)

Hey there! I’ve only been here for a few days, but people have already been ridiculously kind (and surprisingly many of you, too). Figured I should do a proper introduction, so here goes :)

My name’s Jon, I’m 26, and I'm currently in Europe. English will be my main language here, but I’m also fluent in French, German, and Japanese (日本のみんな、日本語もOKだぜ). You could try me in Spanish, but no promises.

I’ve been fascinated by hearts ever since I was a kid, and I’ve been lurking around this community for quite some time now. Seeing all of you share finally pushed me to join in on the fun! I honestly didn’t expect much engagement at first, but after just a few posts, even people I consider the big players around here started reaching out. That’s seriously motivating, so thanks for that! I'm always looking for mutuals, so feel free to reach out, everyone!

As for what I like in particular… well, why don’t you ask and find out? But to give you a hint, besides hearts, I’m also into video games, TV, books, music, and fashion. I’ve got a soft spot for cool outfits and good style, so if that’s your thing too, we’ll probably get along.

About Dark Cardiophilia: I get why people are into the thrill of danger, and no judgment if that’s your thing, more power to you! But for me, it’s not really what I enjoy most. I’m more into pushing limits, seeing what’s possible, and just having fun with it.

When it comes to messaging me: give me something to work with! A simple “hi” won’t cut it, convince me why I should actually reply. I appreciate interesting conversations, so put in a little effort, yeah? Other than that, I do read every message! Also, before you ask, I do have Discord and Snapchat, but I only share them with people I trust. Earn it first.

When I’m not busy letting Tumblr consume my precious lifetime, I’m actually a master’s student in linguistics btw, and I also work in that field. So if you ever wanna geek out over languages (bc who doesn't like that duh), I’m your guy.

Since this is a personal blog, I’ll also be posting some more private things. I’ve been struggling with a severe eating disorder for a long time, and part of the reason I’m here is to track my recovery progress (and, let’s be real, vent every now and then lol). I’m also documenting my workouts and physical changes, and I’m always open to tips! Don’t worry, everything will be tagged properly, so you can stick to what you’re actually here for.

I'd also like to be clear on some rules:

Let’s keep this as SFW as possible (yes, I’m talking to you, guy who keeps DMing me his groin every other hour).

Anything I post, photos, videos, whatever, remains mine. I really appreciate reblogs, but reposting my content is a hard no, especially without credit. It’s only happened once so far (shoutout to that guy for being cool about it), but it does make you think.

I’ll never post my face here, but get to know me well enough privately, and who knows?

At the end of the day, I’m just here to have a good time. If you come across as weird in a bad way or make me uncomfortable, you’re getting blocked on sight.

This is a safe space. Any form of racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, or other hateful behavior I won’t tolerate. Act like a decent human being or find somewhere else to be.

Against common belief, I am in fact still alive and kinda back I guess. Apparently HBP is going offline? Why is everything going down the drain lately?

Here’s the continuation of the last vid! After laying down, my heart started feeling kinda funny in the best way hehe. Can anyone tell me why my heart was doing that and what you would call that? I feel like it’s not quite arrhythmic, but it being slow, with some bursts of faster beats before slowing down again must have a reason, right? :]

The final part of this session is already up over on hbp. I just wanna thank y’all for the insanely positive feedback! Posting something this intimate was a pretty big step for me, so it feels amazing to see everyone as obsessed as I am.

Sorry for the super slow posts these days. Work‘s been fairly busy! But don’t worry, still working out regularly and I even picked up indoor climbing, so that’s cool. In fact, I haven’t felt this good in quite a long time.

Not sure why, but I actually like this one more than some of the other vids.

I swear taking photos is so much easier now that I don’t have to crop out my face.

Ever since I posted the bunny for the first time yesterday, people have been asking for more. So here you go, hope you enjoy :3

Tonight I’ve got some slow beats for you all. I know most people are into the faster, more irregular stuff, but I thought these were nice in their own way. Just calm, more or less steady :]

Also I was at Cologne Pride last weekend, and I might have converted someone. Let him listen to my heartbeat with the steth and he seemed a little too into it. Doing my duty out here i guess haha.

And in other news, something weird happened: A guy from Grindr actually recognized me. Straight up went, “Hey, aren’t you the guy from Tumblr?” Not gonna lie, I was shocked. Never in a million years would I have imagined someone could recognize me from my torso alone. Guess that’s one way to go semi-public.