My Party

It's weird I sometimes land in this headspace of am I doing enough, am I being a good enough friend, am I asking for what I need and having my needs met? Do I even know what to ask for?

I think it's mostly because this time of year leads to a lot of reflection with the year coming to a close... understandably everybody has their things that they are dealing with because I sure as hell do but even still... have I shown up for my peoples in a way that fills them... IDK I feel like I'm withdrawing into myself and I don't necessarily care for it...

Is it because I'm ready to move? Is it because I'm ready for my next adventure? Is it because I'm slightly over my current role? So many factors... It also could just be because I need a break... lol, this fall semester has seemed so strangely chaotic... I've kept up with and stayed on top of things the best I can, often times feeling like I'm not doing enough because I don't have anything immediate to work on...

At this point I'm tiredly rambling... I need to go to bed and get some sleep... on the plus side though I did get a new tattoo well technically 2, one is a cover up the other is a re do of the one that was covered (will be covered lol), I have to go back in January for the shading which gives me some time to look up more options... I have thoughts on how I want it to look but I'll see what I can find... I almost took a nap while he was etching away on my forearm...