koobi enthusiast

u know what. im full of pure self loathing all the time. but i havent thought of or looked at my bts art in so long i completely forgot about it till just now. and as im going thru my art tag all i can think is Theres so many bangers here. i put so much puss into so many things. the way fandom brain fuels me to make fully rendered gorgeous things is crazy i fucking WISH i could put that energy into the art im actually PAID to do but no. like why did i go so fucking hard on the rendering for the drum kit in that drummer jk art. i didnt have to at all. and i put SO much thought into that edit. i synced head and eye and hand movements w the song beats. matched clips w the lyrics. did anyone notice how at the part with seokjin it pans to jks face on the word baby. that was on purpose. EVERYTHING in that was on purpose i burned my eyes staring at my laptop for so long making that. damn. im so emotionally far removed that i feel like im seeing it all from 3rd person and im like God why was i so hard on myself. i killed that shit

just remembered ptd live album happened and lowkey soooo disappointed. like the performance and song mixes are so good. but i already have mp3s of live bts performances and they all sound SOOOOOO much better than these and the whole reason i dont have any mp3s from ptd on stage is cuz the audio in all the videos is kinda dookie. too flat in a way i cant explain. and i was like “omg yay a live album!!! will finally fix that and i can listen to these stage mixes the same as the other lives i listen to!!” but no it STILL sounds flat. guyssssssssssss

but also we are so fucking back in the bad ways too. everyone immediately talking abt losing weight again. enough

jungkook immediately returning to the lip ring we are so fucking back. was so scared he’d take out all his cunty jewelry for the military and then never put it back on again