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Key bc I don’t write good paras:

(Text): aera’s thoughts [Text]: message from someone else [[Text]]: message to someone else “text”: song lyrics “text yay”: speech from someone else “text yay”: speech from aera anything else is just for seatheic purposes so you don’t notice my crap I call writing.

Aera was not amused at all the text she received after she was announced on roommate. Especially the ones from her ex-scandal mates. Her inbox was full of text that made her think of a constant one night stand. granted she never gave the guys anything other than her time and company. Some even got her flirtatious side.

[it’s been awhile. Let’s meet drinks! Oppa will treat you.] Delete [Noona! How was Jejudo?! Why didn’t you take me with you. Take me out again!] Delete [Queen J has come back to the kingdom. Meet me in a few minutes.] Delete [Yah, Jang Aera. Why didn’t I see you at our usual spot] Delete

[Our season begins soon. I know you’re still mad. Just thought I’d check on you, now that you’re off your hiatus. Best Wishes. x.] ... [[Stop checking on me. It doesn’t count when it only benefits you.]] Sent [Okay let’s have it benefit you. I’ll buy you dinner?] [[Where?]] Aera slapped herself for her reply. Not only had she agreed but she didn’t even put up a fight. She reminded herself that she needed this. She needed the face to face confrontation with him. To clear her mind fully. Start fresh, because God knows how long she would be able to keep up her roommate mask. [French?] [[Whatever]] She smiled triumphantly with the last bit of pride she had left. It wasn’t like her to just accept anyone’s invitation especially not at 10:05pm. Aera untangled herself from her members all cuddle on the couch. The movie she had forgotten about was some weird tragic romance movie called Cat Funeral. “Oh unnie, are you going back to the roommate house?” Aera shook her head smiling. Lyza had always been a caring maknae. Aera was grateful for the efforts she put in to keep each member taken care of. “I’m going to visit someone.” She ignored the looks she got from her elders. Aera had a few things in mind. To look hot and flirt for the first 5 minutes and then explode. It was a solid plan. 

“Going out tonight changes into something red.”

Aera was good at being irrational once she made her mind up. She squeezed in her most revealing dress. It covered enough to not be mistaken for a hooker but showed enough to tease the hell out of someone. Adding lip stain and reapplying her mascara she was happy with how she looked.

“Her mother doesn’t like that kinda dress, reminds her of the missing piece of innocents she lost.”

“How do I look?” Aera smiled brightly at her members. She turned the light on so they could see her better. “Aera, I thought you were meeting someone?” Aera cringed remembering who she was meeting and that she was meeting him at all. “Who are you meeting with?” Soohee’s voice was less loving this time. “Hyunwoo.” She whispered. “Little punk, have you lost you mind? Meeting Hyunwoo? Like that? At this time? After your hiatus?” Aera sighed deeply hoping she would take the hint. “Really Aera? I know it was probably nice to hear some ‘kind’ words but you can’t believe he’s serious.” Aera sighed again. “Chill on me unnie. I’ll text you if he tries to pull something. I have a plan.” Aera left on the thin hope that her members would trust her. Besides she was the leader. She wouldn’t make stupid mistakes on purpose.

“Driving too fast moon is breaking through her hair, she’s headed for something that she won’t forget.”

After sneaking around so much, Aera had become an expert at dodging prying eyes. The drive there was a breeze but the wind might have contributed to that feeling. In the parking lot she looked herself over again. (You are Queen J. A queen is never nervous and when she is, she doesn’t let the common folk know.) It was the only thought that pulled her out the car.

“He’s waiting hides behind a cigarette. Heart is beating loud and she doesn’t want it to stop”

(What the fuck!) She screamed internally. Aera guessed they both had the same idea because he looked good and she hated to admit that. “Wow, you look really good.” Aera faked a smile and muttered something that sounded like a thank you. Maybe ‘fuck you’? Inside the restaurant was predominately empty. Usual for a place that shouldn’t even been open this late.

“We’re only getting older baby and I’ve been thinking out it lately.”

“How’s your parents?” Aera stopped the eye roll that came automatically at his small talk. “Hyunwoo. What do you want really?” Her plan had failed just like that. So much for flirting. So much for five minutes. “When did you drop oppa? I know you hate me but I’m still older. Like I said, I was seeing if you’re okay. A year is along time.” Aera sipped her wine signalling him to go on. He didn’t. He stared at her though. She couldn’t blame him for it either. “Ahjussi, my eyes are here.” She pointed shifting his eyes back to her face. “Now you care? I thought I tainted your image? Almost ruined your entire flop career. Are we an amnesia patient now?” Her voice cracked half way but she pushed on. She needed this. Along with another sip of wine. Nope, something stronger. His silenced frightened her. By now they’d be in a full blown argument. “Cat finally ripped your tongue out?” She sneered drinking more. (Stop. You have to drive home.) “For once, I can’t argue with you.” Aera choked on her spit hearing the confession. “I was and still am not fond of commitment. This time... I know who made me think I can try and be in a real relationship.” Aera looked around as if he was talking about someone else. “Me? Help you, be in a real relationship? Now? Hyunwoo are you feeling okay?” She reached over the table placing a hand on his forehead. “Yes, we were so close before..” 

“Having no regrets is all that she really wants.”

Aera sat back down letting her eyes roll freely. “Before you dropped me once our friendship went public. That was such a sellout move. You know you really suck.” She stood preparing to leave. “You also have weird feet and you drool in your sleep, it’s not attractive. I was so close to confessing. Tell the next poor soul that you value the public opinion more than relationships. What happens when the cameras turn off? Who is going to stand by the likes of you. I will not be apart of this. Not again. Good luck with your flop career and revelation of wanting to be in a real relationship.” The words flew out her mouth. Not missing a syllable she let it all out. Her tears didn’t faze her either. She turned to walk out but remembered something else. “Oh and this time, I didn’t cause a problem. I was careful.”

“Does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes.”

She all but ran to her car. Mentally replying the expression change as she drilled into him. She knew she cut deep. That was her plan to wound him. Not as satisfying as she thought but she felt 100kg lighter. Well, her mind was clear, her shoulders were heavy. Probably from the sobs that escaped as she bent over the steering wheel. A solid 10 minutes passed before a knock on the door made her jump. “Get in the back.”

“But there’s nothing to be afraid of even when the night changes.”

Her mascara was a black mess on her face. However she nodded moving into the backseat. The leather seats made small noises as both adults sat. “I’m really sorry.” Aera didn’t hear him. Or at least she pretended she didn’t. She needed his arm to be around her, pulling her close because who knows when the next time she’ll be able to get an emotional break. He was not her first choice. Nor second or third. Hell, he was not on her list at all. Somehow he found his way back into her life. Albeit it was just a night she enjoyed his heartbeat and soft pats her provided.

“Everything that you’ve ever dreamed of disappearing when you wake up.”

“Unnie, wake up! Why are you here? You live in the roommate house!” Aera plugged her ears, trying to avoid the loud screeches Lyza was making. “I’m up, and leaving sorry I scared you.” She grumbled voice far too heavy with sleep. “I’ll make you breakfast.” Aera checked her phone as soon as Lyza left the room.