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Hey weirdo,

thank you for your kind words. From one creature to another.

Dirk is probably my least favorite Homestuck character, tied with KK. funny, then, that i draw him so much.

I dont think its because i like him all that much. not in the normal sense, anyway. its hard to explain. i have a habit of becoming attached to characters that make me feel vaguely haunted. the ones i cant quite look away from. the ones that linger in the back of my head long after ive closed the tab. i end up leaving little pieces of myself inside them without really meaning to, and by the time i notice, it's already happened.

I think i self-insert into him a little. maybe more than a little. not because i think were the same person, but because theres something about him that feels strangely familiar in a way id rather not examine too closely. its like looking into a warped mirror that insists its telling the truth. Drawing him feels easier than thinking about him. I also just really like the version of him that exists in my artwork. i like the way i draw his face, his clothes, his expressions. i think ive accidentally built a version of Dirk that only exists between me and my work, and thats the one i keep coming back to. not necessarily the canon one. just... mine.

Its funny, really. my least favorite characters always end up getting the most attention from me. maybe affection isnt the right word. fascination, maybe. theyre the ones that keep rattling around in my skull like loose change. i dont always enjoy their presence, but ive learned that disliking a character and being deeply invested in them are not opposites.

i like the way i draw him. I think he looks good in my hands. And... yeah. Hes very cool, too.