Black Canson: A triumph

Getting myself a goddess for my birthday #tattoo #bastet #egyptian

Sad people art #latenight #art ?

I need to think of my insides like a machine Everything in it is bit by bit breaking down lately And its me doing that the exterior factors are just triggers I need to map out and draw my brain as a machine end outlet part and I need to turn it on to throw things outwards I need to Just do everything my way non stop and people can just take it or leave it I feel that am running out of time giving to me, with lots of things to be done Am floating but there is too much resistance from the waves around me that keeps hitting me and bruising and injuring me non stop I know this note is probably not going to be read so I am using it to start my machine process outwards I feel am being way too impulsive lately and I need to slow down and rationalize People are using my vulnerability I can feel it My story is getting more complex and I can't process complexity easily I admit my social intelligence is non existent, I used to be proud of that That my state is pure and I don't want to pollute it I just deal with things how my instinct is wanting It goes okai, but there is a very negative nagging persistent demons in the back of my head making me analyze everything way too much I really want to leave for now- for the present I tried today, I did it .. I went out looking like how I wanted I put no effort in my looks or my hair I paid no effort to show manners for seniors or people I dont know I paid no effort in pushing back things I wanted to see I danced in the street, I talked loud I yelled at strangers how I felt about them I showed unconditional love to whom I love I spoke out when I felt stressed I spoke out when something going wrong I did all of that, then another tidal wave decided to crash against me in the mid of my float And I feel am rapidly drowning