In and out, up and down.
Two different people.
I really don’t think I need anybody, I’m strong and independent, but then I want to have people in my life I can rely on.
Parts of me want to live in the woods and travel by mini camper house, and other parts are ready to go to school to be a doctor.
Sometimes I think I can be a lesbian, because a strong woman could be a good life partner, but then I really kinda enjoy being with a man... straight problems.
Sometimes I want to hoe it up and have my first round of meaningless sex. But other parts of me think that’s not the way I want to love myself. Mostly I just think about sex because I’ve been dry for a year 😂😂.
I want to get fit and live a great life full of travel. But I want to settle down with Taco Bell and buy a house.
I think about artificial insemination to have my own child that the baby daddy wouldn’t be an issue with relationships. But then I want to find a man to be a father and husband.
I think about moving somewhere far away from the toxic family members so I no longer have to be affected by them, other times I wish we were closer.
I am confident and love my body sometimes, thick and strong. Other times I cry and am disgusted when I look in the mirror and think such little about myself, not wanting to leave the house.
Sometimes I want to tell you how I feel and see if you feel that way too because no one has ever understood me the way you do, or felt stronger magnetic pull. Other parts of me know better because that can’t happen.
