— PALISADES !

          ‘ i mean, you could— if you wanted to, really. or you could just pretend to be deaf too if people ask—— it’s not like they would really question it. ’

‘ For some reason I don’t think that’s a POSITIVE. More people, the more gears there are turning in the great Portland machine. ’

    “ What makes you think you’re the VOICE of the blind ? Ain’t that a bit conceited ? No offence or nothin’, I’m sure you’d make a great sales rep for the Blind People of America foundation, but, like, don’t people have more IMPORTANT things to care ‘bout ? Like, zombies ? I dunno, I ain’t blind, but you should give yourself more credit. You’re a good guy as far as I can tell, in your own right too, without all the blind baggage. ”

( @jcnack !! )

          ‘ i guess we should have expected this, right ? something else bad had to happen EVENTUALLY—— so why not this ? ’

     “ Why don’t you feel compelled to S H A R E ? ”

‘ I will, –– I would. And now I’m leaving. ’

          ‘ oh ——— have you always been blind ? is it annoying ? not being blind— well, kind of, but i mean people asking about it. ’

      “ I’m gonna regret givin’ you this tip, but fuck it. Don’t give a fuck. You know people say it’s harder than it looks, but it really ain’t. It’s like, in the grand scheme of this entire universe, we’re fuckin’ specks. None of this, really matters anyways. Huh, I feel better already. Sure, I always got my charm on me, but I don’t really put any effort into lookin’ good, ‘less I think it’s going anywhere, y’know ? If they’re WORTH the effort, I put in the EFFORT. Simple. ”

    “ You take me for a mind-reader, I’m not that good. If you would like to s h a r e, I make it a point of listening with the utmost sincerity. ”

‘ That REALLY doesn’t answer my question ! You’re fine… right ? I swear to God, if you’re not & I just breathed your air––– I will, like, kick you in the shin, or something. ’

@jcnack !

‘ This illness —- it’s certainly dropping morale. It’ll make protecting people HARDER. ’

      “ Fuck LEAGUES, you can get anyone if you try hard enough. And if you don’t, you just move on to the next one. That’s cycle of life, baby, none of this ‘ league ’ bullshit. Sure, I can be handsome, but you just got it. Plus you work out, it shows. S’not like I’m fat or anything, fuck it, imagine me as Humphrey Bogart. No, William Holden circa Sunset Boulevard. ”

     “ That makes it all the more TRAGIC then, yes ? You had something to lose - and well, I can only assume you LOST it. ”

@jcnack !

‘ You haven’t… thrown up in the last twenty-four hours, have you ? No–– coughing blood, or sweating like it’s Florida in July, right ? Dead is not a good look on me, Acker. ’

‘ Teacher. Concerned teacher! ‘Cause a few of the kids had PRETTY bad colds this week, something is going ‘round, I think. But maybe you should TALK to a medic. ’

     “ Fuck off, I ain’t givin’ you any of my tips. I know if I do, you’d be fuckin’ DROWNIN’ in pussy & dick. ‘Cos like, I ain’t sore on the eyes, but you’re fuckin’ handsome. ”

( @jcnack !! )

          ‘ so, is it more of a— “ i can only see shadows ” type of thing, or a “ i’m constantly engulfed in darkness ” thing ? or is it different ? ’