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I just thought it would be nice to spill everything out. I know that life hits us hard sometimes, and we feel lost inside. I never dreamed about anything, and I just continue what myself is telling me to do. I listened to what my heart has to say. I started to actually listen to my own self. Then my blog started reaching more people without me even knowing. I started submitting my writings to a lot of platforms hoping that I could reach more. And surprisingly, I did.

In 2019 I told myself that I would finally write that book. But due to a lot of personal reasons, I wasn't able to publish it on the same year. I was only able to do it finally, this year, 2021. I was able to finally have the courage to self-published a book at 27 years old. It took me 2 years from the moment I decided to do it, to finally have it in my own hands. I didn't like it at first, so I had to edit it, and had to order for author copies multiple times. (I am not rich, and for my Filipino readers, I do understand that amazon shipping costs more than the price of the book itself. I really do.) And I was so shy about it, I can't even tell everyone. I just thought that, what if they don't like it? What if it doesn't sell? What am I supposed to do if it doesn't turn out the way I always wanted to?

There are still a lot of things I need to learn. A lot of things I have to see and observe. A lot of perspectives I have to understand. My debut book isn't perfect and it will never be, but now I am proud of it. I thank myself for at least trying to get out of my comfort zone, for at least taking one step forward no matter how little it may have reach at first.

And I wanted to thank all of my "sweeties" here on tumblr because it all started here. Thank you so much for pushing me to do better. Thank you so much for all your kindness and support. I truly appreciate each one of you. And as what I always say, I hope you're all doing fine. Breathe, sweetie. I am glad that you are here. Thank you so much for existing.

I genuinely hope that someday you'll be able to have the courage you need to make your dream come true.

Sending loves and hugs,

vomitingwords//ma.c.a

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@iamvomitingwords

Title: Umibe no Etranger Also known as: Stranger by the Beach, L'étranger de la Plage This is a animated movie adaptation of Umibe no Etranger by Kii Kanna ​ Manga plot: “There’s nothing wrong with liking another guy.” To be in the arms of the person I love… I thought that was an unattainable dream… On an island off the coast of Okinawa, two young men meet on a beach. Shun Hashimoto is gay and aspires to be a novelist. He is interested in Mio Chibana, a somber high school student, and starts to flirt with him. Day by day, the two of them grow closer, but then, suddenly, Mio decides to leave the island. Three years later, Mio returns and approaches Shun with the words, “I’ve thought about it for the past three years. I like you, Shun, even if you’re a guy.” However, when faced with the prospect of finally becoming lovers with Mio, Shun cannot take the first step towards commitment. This is a tantalizing love story about a gay novelist and a younger part-time worker. (From: MyAnimeList) In collaboration with aarinfantasy~ Thank you!

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