A Little Bit of This, And A Little Bit of That...

Toughest part about this, is I thought we were headed in the right path this time only to be showed that I was wrong and that there will always be another one in your view. I’m hurt but I feel like I did it to myself. I was just hoping for a change.

I hate coming here to say how I feel but this is like a journal to me. I really have been doing good lately with all the craziness going on in the world and it just feel shit to get something I’ve always want and can wear everyday and then go to work and be around people I’ve know for years and them not show any excitement at all. I really don’t care about how it might make me look but I’m excited to have work hard and bought it for myself. If you feel like I trying to show off or feel flashy then don’t wear yours. Because then your a hypocrite instead you could of at least said hey it looks nice that fucking all.

It’s noce to see you but doesn’t help when distractions are here like idk I feel like both of you would switch up and I hate it why does this have to be so classified just tell me the truth. I’d rather know I’m not wanted than be okay for a fool.. 🔪

What to do.. what to do.. life goes up, down then right back again. Ride the wave I guess. Stack some money on the way. I guess I’d rather have money then always be worried about other people. At the end of the day they are not going to really care about how I feel. Just need to be true to myself.

Shit really suck when you feel like your just going down hill and everyone around watching letting you fall.

Well I guess I never learned it is better to not tell anyone about what’s going on in your life people don’t care or they will use it against you. I just need to move on from all of this

I’m honestly happy I always kept social media on the down low. I never liked posting things on other sites and I’m happy that people around me don’t know my profiles. Just helps when venting. People are to into people profiles and not their feeling or the words coming out of their mouth. Would rather go off of a post or message typed on a profile.

Shots really bothering me rn. Like how do you almost spend a month straight with someone but all of a sudden you find some one else and poof you push me aside and wish me the best.. lmao anyone wanna buy some concert tickets! 😂

Just feel dumb as hell right now. Thought I could be someone who could prove something to you but you weren’t even really looking at me for that. Instead history will repeat itself and i get pushed to the side like some bread before the meal. Shits annoying af all the time money and stupid ideas I had or wanted to do for us. Nothing was worth it and still wouldn’t be. Tomorrow you’ll it’s have that smile on your face like you a perfect little angel. Your not

Happy for people when they knock off shit on their bucket list but honestly I don’t want to know sometimes. Happy for you but I don’t need to know that shit.

Is it dumb to plan a secret birthday gift for the person you care the most about right now. Even if it’s months down the road hoping you’ll be able to still go with each other with some sense of awkwardness between you two? Idk but it’s worth the shot!

Today was a great day to start. Then people showed me why there is no reason to associate with them. My own friend will turn his back and not say shit and just stay quiet and no one would ask me why I seem mad. I feel like I’m being pushed out and if that’s what they want then I’ll be solo. Tired of fake friends and fake people

Why does everyone think I have an attitude when I’m just asking what their plans are. Shit annoying and makes me get an attitude. Like fuck

Can’t be mad at me for shit I havnt done. Get over it and move on this isn’t where you want to be