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See also – “Neurologically female” and “Transwoman” There are things we (male-bodied people who are Transgender) each WANT but can’t have – it’s only part of why we experience so much pain about this.. There is something that I understood emotionally long before I understood the logic of it. My parents were still married, remembering THAT is part of how I began to realize who I was. That…

There are two passages in the Bible that inform my belief…. there is supporting scripture, but I’m not going to go into that now…..Isaiah 56:3-5 American Standard Version:3 Neither let the foreigner, that hath joined himself to Jehovah, speak, saying, Jehovah will surely separate me from his people; neither let the eunuch say, Behold, I am a dry tree. 4 For thus saith Jehovah of the eunuchs that…

Front Seat For the Ghost Dance

Why Trans people exist, a Christian perspective

Carmen and I went on an Alaskan Cruise from August 16th through the 24 – though it ended up lasting a day longer….<ugh> The 1st day was exhausting, a plane flight to Seattle, lugging around too much luggage too far, then finding the shuttle to our hotel. The 2nd day, as we checked out, waiting for the shuttle to the port, two guys were dealing with luggage, perhaps with booking a room. One guy…

I’ve been seeing my 4th therapist for a few months now. We’ve discussed where I am in transition, some about my childhood, my family – it seems as if we’re just scratching the surface so far. But – she said something that impacted me oddly two sessions ago. She wanted me to take off my glasses – so I did…. “You look more feminine without them”. That made me irrationally happy, I think for the…

I started with her on the 15th…. just this last Thursday.My first therapist was a guy – decent enough, but a *GUY* and not a specialist when it comes to Gender Issues. I guess my goal with him was to make sure I was sane. I’d just suffered a major psychological episode, and I was pretty shaky emotionally. My second was someone I’d met at a Transgender support group, and he wrote the letter that…

Well…. I’ve been officially retired for about a month and a half now. Given that I can actually sleep at least 8 hours a day, that alone makes me think it was the right choice. I’m feeling slightly more energetic, I can eat at reasonable times, I’m more or less keeping up with taking my medications, and the anxiety is slowly melting away. I don’t think the Anxiety is ever going to completely…

….they aren’t this big – YET…. I’m a 44B, most people don’t even notice – WOULDN’T unless I took my shirt off…. Given how they change my point of view on so much, *I* can’t ignore them. The picture is kind of how they FEEL most of the time. I’m at a sort of impasse/pause in regards to transition. I want to get rid of the gut, which is probably more my body’s response to stress and running on…

It’s been a few months. At the end of May, Carmen went to visit her son in the Philippines – and it was a HOT summer here in Texas. It was honestly pretty damned lonely, and I was exhausted all the time because of the heat and the stupid schedule at work….. (they have since modified that schedule, hopefully it stays like this for me, they have issues retaining people). There were some…