live and laugh but be very weary of love

I've said I don't wanna get married I don't wanna have children unless by a donor..... I don't want a lot of things actually but now looking at this broken society it's selfish to bring a child and willingly let them grow without a father figure. Lack of a father.. And not a father figure, A real father for me influenced alot of my decisions as the impact was more catastrophic than anything for my family dynamic. I'm scared of the whole process but it's a work in progress. I have found the man I truly and deeply care for.. ... I never knew I'd feel for a man the way I feel for this one. He makes me smile.. No laugh and LOL too He's not perfect but he doesn't hit me. He listens... he has real future plans that are underway already he respects family and strives to have his own. He earns his living legally bruuh he is tall and handsome not as dark as I love them but fine just as much..... He respects that I want to get my money just as much as I want a family so it's a compromise we agree on and not a settlement where one loses for other to gain....