Jacob & MaryJane

It has occurred to me .. living my life as by prophets of sound and music .. philosophy and understandings of art .. this understanding of how .. perhaps .. acting .. and actors participate in something akin to .. divine religion .. or .. for me .. an accessible understanding there of .. this ability of .. creating through mentality and intelligent understanding of awarenesses .. roles .. ability .. characters .. and character .. is a profound gift .. and reasonably requires an effective discipline .. method of practice there of .. and is sacred .. as religion .. ways .. methods and .. profound understanding such as a divine religion would be accountably responsible to ..

For me .. when I consider .. and have considered the relationships of actors and directors .. it seems a different breed of understanding .. as though through life .. they have found an innate ability to trust .. one another and each other with something sacred .. such as influence .. and control as something .. or someone they are not .. with such an absolute trust of each other .. they are able to portray what is necessary for .. beyond belief .. maybe .. other than mortally reasonable understandings .. though not beyond the grasp of .. with each other .. and of themselves ..

Some moments in my life .. I have found and understandable way to manage a harrying barrage of .. unknowabley necessary sense of awareness through this phrase of necessity to me .. act your way to sanity ..

I would adore a practiced method of religiously spiritual understanding such as this .. I duly intend to .. upon able intent .. respect the understanding of this truth I recognize as divine .. sacred acting .. divine trust .. and true methods there of should I have an ability to ..

All my respect for the Divine Religion of acting .. actors .. directors .. and this which allows this understanding for me .. you are all sacred to me ..

Be good

Jacob & MaryJane

Nothing is always ever always true .. ever ..

Here’s some developing myth

enjoy ..

As always Hail Satan ..

Be good ..

Jacob & MaryJane

I have not seen you in a while .. I have always missed you when you're gone. I have you so tight in my mind I can think of nothing else and .. I have not seen you in a while .. I haven't heard your name .. what's your name ..

(Cold War Kids) 

These guys mean so much to me .. as artists .. as true .. as absolutely my most inspirational band in my playlist .. I’m goin to tell you a story .. it’s a bit schizophrenic .. and definitely not normal .. but it’s true .. nonetheless .. especially to me .. like bedtime stories read to a restless child with a mind too wild .. like the truth of communities who believe in little government .. who write songs like avalanche in B which elucidates the truth of artistic community and love and honor and care and courage .. and whether or not it has the best answers it at least has answers .. kind answers .. good answers .. I .. had gotten into them on an older Zune subscription and had been listening to them for days .. I loved them .. and felt included by them and as I am I tend to avoid television.. I always have .. ever since adolescence ..but I always challenge my ways as constantly as the sun rises and .. in actuality .. pretty much every moment of my waking life is challenging myself and the way I think and what I have thought and … constantly testing for gold .. is this true .. am I honest .. and this particular story happens as I am working at Stoll and company watch company ..as a watchmaker .. over lets see .. 1996 to 2010 .. fourteen years into having been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder .. an understandably disabling condition to be diagnosed with .. at any rate .. this happened .. Cold War Kids had an appearance on David Letterman .. and I wanted to push myself to .. to watch to get over my isolationism .. to have courage and support them .. and I got to see it . .during daylight time strangely enough on my Zune player or something .. I don't remember how .. but David says hey you in my head .. and I'm like yeah .. and he says .. who’s your favorite band .. and Between good earnest honest kind music I loved and .. cool music I also care for with a deep kind of heroin sheik sound of pain .. I chose pain and .. I felt like everybody was mad at me for having .. chosen something .. and it may be true I like different kinds of music differently but this . is true .. my heart broke . and their heart felt broken to me .. and at night .. it seemed their conscious showed up in my room with my wife and I and she asked .. I asked .. how did you make it .. and they said .. I had faith .. and I know music is a mystery .. and I know music is sacred .. and I know music is divine .. probably LA Divine .. come to think about it .. but .. I felt like I had let down my best friends and I didn’t know how not to .. for years I hid from them .. I hated myself so much .. and I to this day don't know how to make up for not saying what I was supposed to .. what would have been true .. because .. this  .. Cold War Kids  are amazing .. and I miss their friendship .. at any rate .. I felt like listening to them and thought to share this story with you .. enjoy them .. they always mean love to me .. .. I would lie and steal for them .. they are true beyond any I know of .. enjoy

There is a saying .. driven by fear .. and yet .. how do we know reasonable ways to understand why we feel fear .. most notably .. all things as they should be .. fear is .. a sort of sixth sense .. an extension of ourselves which .. leads to .. safety .. a sense of trust .. in ones-self for in that this .. when you are scared .. there is cause to .. protect .. be wary .. and care for those which are of value to you .. to care for those things which enable you to care for each other .. and yourself .. upon accomplishment .. we reward ourselves with pride .. with family .. with the right to respectful appropriation of emotional resources and knowledge which enable us to do so again at less the cost and in such a feat .. become valuable to our community .. there is actually no way I am aware of to overcome fear .. so to speak .. there are ways to handle your fears and the fears of others and the fears you are aware of others facing .. but we cannot be without fear .. and for good reason .. 

Should you take to task this lesson and understanding .. to a reasonable accomplishment .. you may find this .. sit .. very still and calm .. walk very slowly and comfortably .. be yourself without hurting .. and strive to .. accomplish moving a finger .. a foot .. your head and neck .. without motivating this movement .. without choosing through negotiation .. fear .. a word .. a phrase .. a threat .. you call to mind and .. accomplish in order that this .. we may choose .. we have ability to be .. there is no life without fear .. and .. sometimes fears can be overwhelming .. 

Do not let fear rule your life and do not attempt a life without it .. balance is the way through .. no one here is trying to go to anywhere … keep breathing .. and maybe we .. definitely we may find a way to temper our fears into something and .. accomplish success .. there is no life without it ..

Be Good ..