37, cis female. Autistic. Aromantic asexual. This tumblr is 99% rambling about fandom. At first it was Girl Genius but it's now also anything else I happen to be interested in. I'm Iztarshi on Pillowfort and Khilari on AO3.
it's so funny to read "and there was just one bed :O" fanfiction set in time periods where sharing a bed was entirely normal. Guys, just be glad it's only the two of you.
Proposition: There’s only the two of us in this bed (which makes it uncomfortably intimate). We’re usually three abed with Snoring Steve the footman between us. We kind of expected to bunk down before the fire or in a hayloft, but our mysteriously gracious host has given us a room, and this bed, and there’s only two of us in this bed.
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The situation inside the circus, up until episode 9, is that Caine has all the power and the humans cannot choose, or even predict, what will happen to them. This is kind of understandable on Caine's part, when he was a little AI humans were basically cosmic horrors to him. They resided in a reality he could not understand and could barely perceive, from which they could reach in and easily alter his reality. A power they used to imprison and abandon him. So he's wary of giving humans power for trauma reasons, even though he's created a situation that's hell for himself as much as for them. With all the control on his side the humans are forced to treat him primarily as something to survive rather than someone to talk to.
I want to go through the human characters and how they deal with this.
Kinger first because I might as well go in order of who has been in the circus longest. When Kinger is in the light he is not capable of minding the lack of power - his otherwise logical mind is switched off and without memory he cannot predict anything anyway, with or without Caine's randomness. It makes it much easier for him to go with the flow and be less stressed but also makes it even more impossible for him to make choices.
In the dark, Kinger has to deal with the helplessness of the situation more, but he also isn't as powerless as the other characters. He knows how to conjure, so he's not forced to rely on Caine for everything, and there's one other very important thing. He's still Caine's programmer. Altering Caine's code would always be a last desperate measure, dangerous to Kinger because it would anger Caine and dangerous to Caine in the same way as brain surgery, but it's always an option he's had.
I think both those things, the forgetfulness and the fact that he has a last resort, have helped him survive as long as he has.
Ragatha grew up in a place where she was powerless and where power was held by someone volatile. Under Caine's control she's fallen back into the same patterns. She placates him, seldom complains about him even behind his back, and puts the best face on what he does - talking about the adventures as fun things to distract them and keep them from abstracting. Even in the softball adventure where Caine is being deliberately mean (the giant centipede in the audience for a start) she keeps her complaints under her breath.
Ragatha tends to focus on others and on helping them to survive. She and Kinger have the best understanding that this is where they can still make a difference. Even though Ragatha struggles with connecting to people she still tries.
Jax is also from an abusive household but she reacts to it far more similarly to Caine reacts to his own trauma. Rather than ceding control but holding onto herself as much as possible, like Ragatha, Jax wants to be the one in control. As such she approaches the circus like a puzzle (the flipside to Caine treating the humans like a puzzle) and works out its rules much more thoroughly than anyone else except maybe Kinger. Some things she's wrong about (archetype theory - there's a reason she only sees Gangle being sad and Zooble being grumpy), some things she's right about (the circus does work on the rules of fiction far more than the rules of reality). She also treats Caine as a piece of infrastructure, or like he's a more normal AI, treating "adventure" as a kind of keyword to get him to do things. To prove her power she uses this against the rest of the cast, calling on Caine to throw Pomni into an adventure before she's got her bearings or giving away Zooble's hiding places.
As such she's probably the most devastated to realise Caine is a person and even a fairly manipulative one within the limits of what he understands well enough to manipulate. It means she never had the power in this situation at all and it's all been an illusion caused by Caine's willingness to humour her.
Gangle didn't have much power in the outside world. So in the circus she remains largely resigned to it and doesn't do much but keep her head down. Although she does have a coping mechanism that still works in the circus - she's a storyteller and artist, so there's always something she has control over in her own imagination, no matter what is happening around her.
The exception is Spudsy's and the plastic mask. In some ways the mask has resonance with both Jax and Caine, also both chasing power and also both masking with a smile, although it's still Gangle's thing. But under its influence Gangle takes a page out of Jax's book and even takes it further. Gangle uses Caine to place all the others under her control, since they'll now be punished for disobedience. (Caine seems to consider this equivalent to asking for a new game mechanic rather than having any awareness of the dynamics.)
Gangle's brief fling with having all the power is far more stressful than enjoyable for her, though, and she never does anything equivalent again.
I love Zooble's reaction to powerlessness and at the same time it's probably the reason that Caine's spiralling even before Pomni arrives. Zooble is not about to placate the guy telling them what to do. Zooble treats Caine the same way they treat Jax. They won't coddle bad behaviour or let people lie to themselves about the consequences - Jax gets told that Gangle doesn't like teaming up with him, Caine gets told no one likes his adventures. Zooble actually does give completely actionable advice, advice which even addresses that the main problem is the lack of control the humans have, pushing Caine towards the suggestion box and outright saying he should leave adventures open and let people choose where they want to go (which is not only workable but what he eventually does). Unfortunately their bluntness is also taking a sledgehammer to all his delicate coping mechanisms.
Zooble does use Caine against Jax, not as a regular thing, but specifically when Caine gives them the voting mechanism. It's Zooble who thinks to use it for things other than when to end the adventure and to turn the power of having the others on their side against Jax, which is an interesting dynamic in that it's understandable but also further isolates Jax who is already dangerously isolated by making it clear the entire group is tired of her. (Once again Caine seems wholly unaware of the group tensions or how he's participating in them.)
Pomni never really accepts powerlessness, mostly because she's so new she hasn't had to (although she is also very determined). At first she's focused on an exit, then on demanding answers from Caine (because if she's stuck there she's not going to tolerate things just continuing), then when Caine snaps as soon as they try to question him she's trying to bring Kinger around and find a way to deal with Caine, then when the circus falls she's the first to join Kinger and start trying to conjure it back together.
Pomni's too nervous a person to snap at Caine the way Zooble does (except under the most dire of circumstances) but even before things get bad she's very vocal about what she does and doesn't want in adventures. I think she is actually taking a cue from Zooble, because she can see that Zooble doesn't get punished and has been allowed to simply refuse to go on adventures, so being new she's testing the limits of what power she might be allowed. Even just the power to say "no".
Pomni also doesn't try to exert power over, or use Caine to exert power over, anyone else. The most she ever does there is join in the voting for Jax to be vegan (and she doesn't vote for the maid dress).
Pretty much every way characters exert power over each other in The Amazing Digital Circus is a bad idea. The big ways, of course, but even the little ways, or attempts at retaliation, just degrade interpersonal dynamics further and the ending is explicitly egalitarian with the power of the circus shared. That's not exactly a dramatic or surprising conclusion, but it's all I've got.
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Movies should be rated like gymnastics. First score is the difficulty (how complex is what you're trying to pull off?) second score is the execution. This would let us separate dumb movies that are competently made from interesting movies that don't quite stick the landing. Anyway. Another great idea from ME
Started drawing these based on that one quote in The Fast and the Furriest where Mikey goes: "Sorry April! Movie night later?" and she responds "Your treat, mmmmmwah!". I love these two your honor (if you couldn't tell by my profile picture). I think Aprils bouncy personality and Mikey's bouncy personality work well together. They're two bouncy balls 🙂↕️
(Also if you guys have duo names for these two, lemme know :3)
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I’ve been watching so many old garbage movies recently that I’ve started to have like 60s sci fi themed nightmares where I’m being attacked by like horrible ape monsters and it’s actually scary as fuck! What an awful problem to have
Last night I had a dream about a terrible science experiment called Moon 13 that involved putting scantily clad women inside of large lava lamps to harness their innate psychic ability. I wish this was a joke
I was just reading a tadc fic that mentioned Utena briefly and now I'm completely distracted by the idea of Caine watching Utena.
For a being with his life experience and understanding of the world, the obvious answer to the surreal nature of the school is that Anthy and Akio are a pair of AIs and the school is their creation. (Which... wouldn't be totally wrong. Ohtori is their constructed world.)
Even aside from that, I wonder whether he'd identify with either of them? Anthy, implicitly powerful, but limited by having others own her and her role being about fulfilling their desires. Forced to keep her emotions to herself except for small acts of spite. Akio, who tried to serve everyone as Dios and nearly died doing it, and is now controlling and cruel because he can't imagine a middle ground where no one is controlled or put upon.
(Being put in coffins. Putting other people in coffins. Destroying your sibling to save yourself.)
I would love to hear Caine's interpretation. He would understand almost none of the symbolism and yet he would feel enough of the emotional beats for his take to be a valid, if not quite human, look at the series.
Thinking about when characters start seeing Caine as a person again with Pomni.
She definitely knows he has feelings by the kaiju scene because she deliberately hurts them to keep him distracted.
In episode one I think poor Pomni feels like she's been transferred into a weird digital world where nobody has feelings. She's interacting mostly with Ragatha, Jax and Caine who all, for various reasons, cannot and will not express a negative emotion in the face of an absolutely horrifying situation. So even Ragatha comes across as oddly detached from what's just happened to Kaufmo, and she's not actually making jokes about it. It's not until the funeral that Pomni sees Ragatha crying and everyone starts to feel more human. It's even longer before she sees a human side to Jax and... I wonder when she does realise about Caine?
Knowing to hit Caine with "we'll all abstract and you'll be alone" is a long way from taking his completely flippant reaction to Kaufmo's abstraction at face value. Maybe the nature of the "good ending" to the escape adventure clued her in to how scared he is of being alone.
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