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I'm so fucking tired and it's because I ate before my Adderall. That's what I get for being fucking stupid. If I eat anything before my meds they just don't work and make me feel like I'm going to pass out from exhaustion.

It's crazy knowing how much more out of shape I am than my last legitimate relapse I 2013 because my mom had confronted me about going back to treatment at a higher weight than I am now because i just look 15lbs heavier than I am now because I've got no muscle on my body

I took a bite of my left over toast before taking my meds and I can already tell my Adderall isn't going to work today because I ate before taking it

Don't feel like doing jack shit today or getting out of bed

A rest day but it's just me laying in bed and taking lax and skipping therapy tomorrow

A rest day but it's just me laying in and taking lax and skipping therapy tomorrow

When I'm ordering any food, groceries or fast food, if there isn't calories listed or a picture of the nutrition panel, I won't buy

Don't feel like doing jack shit today or getting out of bed

Listen. I'm fucking tired of forcing myself to eat all the time when Im not hungry and being uncomfortable from eating all the damn time and spending money on food to eat when I'm not fucking hungry. If we think about it, it's a financially smart decision.

I'm always saying if you're gonna be stupid, be smart but what if I just want to be stupid for awhile instead.