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And what if I just don't care about eating enough compared to my walking anymore or care enough to eat well and balanced. If the 500 calories mark starts to freak me out again even though for the last year my 12pm intake goal was to be at 500 and actively kept myself from more than a 700 deficit. And what if I just don't fucking care to keep putting in all the effort.

I'll really be sitting here wondering why suddenly I feel an overwhelming dark and looming cloud over my life and inescapable feeling of defeat.

I also still haven't heard from my dad about bringing my AC over so I'm just over asking for the help at this point. I asked if he could come over during the week on the day I ordered it. Gave him a week's heads up because it took a week for delivery. He texted me when it arrived. ... Then I saw him the day I got my new phone and he didn't bring it up even though the box was sitting right in the room with us. I asked him yesterday if he could do it in the next few days and he said "that's the plan, maybe today" . I say okay I'll be home all day.

Thinking about making a list of PT in my area and calling to just flat out ask if or how much their staff have experience with hypermobility because it's just been the annoying part of want to do any more PT when every appointment felt like them scratching their heads on how to modify the exercises for me. I'd rather just get a yes or no before going and doing a bunch of initial evals.

Okay. Guys, I need input.