Garrick was just finishing up in the gym, igoring the women that were flirting with him and he looks at the person who came in and nods at them. "You ready to train today?" @ggstarterblog

Xaden looked at Garrick, his red rimmed eyes evident that he's been channeling and full Venin still. "I don't have a choice, do I?" He asks his best friend.

Feyre chuckled, xaden was painting an image somewhat familiar. " Sounds like a good place. Palace's are way too fancy. I know this place is not like home, not like yours and mine, but look up Xaden, you have stars here too, and chocolate cake too." She smiled. " This place, does it have a roof?" Feyre said, suddenly with an idea while texting on her phone something.

"I know they do, but there's no place like home, either, you know?" He looked at her. "It does, yeah. Every place has a roof." He said and rubbed the back of his neck.

"The dragons help the bond, right?" She asked, trying to figure him out, but he seemed a lot calmer now. " Stop being negative, Xaden, it gets you nowhere. What, in your world, besides Violet and the dragon, could help?"

"They do, yeah." He said and looked at her. "Sitting on my family's...estate, I guess that's what it can be called. Palace sounds...palace sounds horrible." He chuckled. "Watching the stars shine in Areita, eating chocolate cake."

" You need to get out of this funk, Xaden. Maybe that's the reason why you're acting up." Feyre said as she stood up and looked down. " Then when you're feeling like this, you call her, call on her, be with her. I do it all the time...i have this bond with him, I can speak to him in my mind, he knows everything î'm thinking, what I'm feeling. Get that connection.

"I can speak to Violet, but...it's easier with Sgyeal and Tarin being here and our dragons somewhere." He rubbed his face and sighed. "I can't, I am beyond fucked on this."

"It doesn't matter, if there's magic, even a smidge of it, I'm Venin." He cleared his throat and sighed. "Violet." He answered without hesitation. "My wife. She's...she's my world, but being with her, doesn't change me to human."

" And renounce magic? Would that help? I mean, you would lose your magic.." she said , thinking about being human again, losing the bond between her and her mate. " Does she ground you? That's what matters here."

"I can't renounce or remove magic, it doesn't work that way." Xaden said. "She..yes, she does."

" In your world...you're living in a completely different plane right now. Different powers, different experiences. Don't give up on it just because over there, you couldn't win." she said, speaking from experience, she was the girl that didn't give up, not even in the pits of hell. " Do you have someone...like for me it's a mate, for you it might be a partner or a girlfriend or boyfriend, as they call it in this world." Feyre asked as she lowered herself on the sofa next to him.

"It doesn't matter, if there's magic, even a smidge of it, I'm Venin." He cleared his throat and sighed. "Violet." He answered without hesitation. "My wife. She's...she's my world, but being with her, doesn't change me to human."

" Who hasn't? But is it like a sickness? Is it curable?" Feyre wondered. Thinking if she ever had to give her life to save Rhysand's, she would definitely do the same as Xaden. Calming herself and putting her hands down, Feyre walked further inside. " What triggers your bad side?"

"It's not curable." Xaden shook his head and sat down on the couch, as if giving up. He put his hands in face and looked at her. "I just...am this, nothing triggers it. I don't know what the fuck happened where it came to be that I am this, I thought I was safe here."

"Jesus fuck." Sterling covered his ears and winced as he heard a loud scream in Central Park. He uncovered his hears and sighed. "Apparently someone just saw a celebrity. I'm not sure if I like or hate my fae-hearing if I'm being honest." @ggstarterblog

"I would fucking hate that, actually." Xaden looked at Sterling. "Is there anything you can do to help with it?"

"I'm so exhausted, I have been working so much lately, but I hate that I can't say anything." Imogen said with a laugh. "Anyways, how are you doing?" @ggstarterblog

"I'm not gonna lie, I'm not doing the best, but I'll be okay. Hopefully." He shrugged. He was wearing sunglasses and dark clothing to cover his red veins that were protruding from his skin. "How about you?"

"call me crazy, but i don't believe that you don't want to harm me or anyone." he said with a dry and sarcastic laugh. "you look like you came from the realm of hel."

"You don't have to believe me, I know my intent, and that's what matters." He looked at Hunt and laughed. "I feel like I came from Malek." He shook his head.

"is navarre where you're from?" she asked. "you're a dragon rider, aren't you?"

"Yes, but I was born in Aretia, I'm the Duke of Tyrrendor." He explained. "And yes, I am a dragon rider, a shadow wielder too."

Her eyes narrowed at him and she clenched her fists together. "You are so fucking lucky, Riorson, that Violet loves you because if she didn't, you and I would be fighting. I don't care that you're Venin. Violet is my best friend, I will protect her over saving you."

Xaden looked at her. "You really think threatening me is a good idea? You know Violet as well as I do. She'll sacrifice herself before she lets anyone die."

"Yeah, no fucking shit you're fucked." He shook his head and groaned. "Damn it Xaden, just...damn it! Vi is gonna fucking freak when she sees you like this and what's worse, there isn't supposed to be magic here. You can't draw from the earth. You...fuck."

"I know Garrick!" He snapped and shook his head. Running a hand through his hair, he closed his eyes and exhaled. "Fuck, I don't know what to do." He admitted and opened his red eyes again. "I need help, I...I just need help."

"Hey, you forgot this at the..." Hope/Belle paused when she saw him and his red eyes. She approached him and placed a hand on his shoulder. "You're supernatural and I didn't know?" She scoffed. "I know exactly what that feels like. To have something dark and powerful running through your veins, something that threatens to take over... Trust me, I understand better than anyone. You aren't alone in this."

Xaden tensed when she touched him and took several steps away from her. At her words, he couldn't help but laugh and he turned to face Belle. "I kill, just by putting my hand on the anything, I can suck the life out of this whole fucking city if I wanted to, I'm not a fae, a High Lord, a fallen Angel, whatever the fuck else, I'm Venin, I'm more deadly than any of them."

" Should I know what a venin is....? And why would I believe you?" Feyre asked, still a bit unsure but happy her powers were finally back, her bond felt like coming home. She whispered to it. "I'm fine."

"A Venin, where I'm from, is a monster, and that's what I became, to protect Violet, to protect Bodhi, Garrick, Imogen, everyone I love, I became a monster." He explained and cleared his throat. "I'm not going to hurt you, because I know I won't be able to live with myself if I hurt you, if I hurt anyone."

"I'm a monster, Mateo." He looked at him. He had taken a step back from the other male and was trying to compose himself so he didn't hurt the human. "I...you need to leave. I can't be around you, or anyone that can't wield any form of magic."