A Third's Reality

Mazer Rackham

This is to everyone who helped defeat the buggers

I wanted to go back to earth but Val suggested that I don’t. peter apparently has taken over the world and wants me to go there so he can use me and I can be on his side. Instead Val and I are going to a different planet to start a civilization. The planet the buggers lived on. When We went there some strange things happened, things I can’t even put on this blog because it’s too personal and risky to share...but one day, people will know. After things are straightened out things will unfold and people will understand what happened. But for now, this is the end, the end of the buggers, the end of misery. Val is now writing a biography of me, and I’m writing about Peter...things are becoming better, let’s hope they stay this way...

Today was the best day of my life! I found that Alai, Bean, Petra, Dink, Crazy Tom and every person who I believed was my friend came to Eros! We’re practicing together, the best people in battle school are now at command school. We practiced together. At one practice so many people were sent and so much effort was put, my team won and when the lights were turned on everyone was cheering, people had tears in their eyes, Graff was hugging people and I was extremely confused. My team and I were wondering what happened and we found out that we beat the actual buggers. It wasn’t practice, this was real life and I defeated the buggers. We defeated the buggers. It was finally over.  But I felt terrible, we sent in real men, who had families and a life, without realizing, to their death so many people died because of me...am I killer?

I've been on earth for 2 months now. When I first made it to earth, it felt weird as if I don’t belong but now I don’t want to leave. I’m in Florida, at a lake, thinking of nothing, just relaxing...this is life. I even built a raft. I want to stay here for the rest of my life. But today something unexpected happened Val came to visit me. I’m not stupid, I know Graff got her because I wasn’t cooperating. Val can persuade people into doing things she’s good at that and this is why she’s here. To persuade me to go back and save the world. Deep down I was so happy to see her, I wanted to jump and hug her and tell her what happened to me, but I couldn’t, I just stared at her with empty eyes. I’m too tired for anything. It was really weird she looked different, I lost track of beauty, is she beautiful? I don’t know. The first thing she started talking about was Peter, that got me annoyed, what about me? I've been gone for 4 years...We talked about Peter, the buggers, everything there is and I even admitted how much I hate myself, because I do. Things aren’t the same with Val, we’ve grown up so much she’s closer to Peter than me it’s so formal now. She somehow, I knew this would happen, persuaded me to go back. And I will, I’ll leave soon. But she left me with a feeling of loneliness… that the only reason she came isn’t because she loved me but because Graff used her, she wouldn’t even know I was here if it weren’t for Graff. She’s a tool like everyone else, but the only tool I love.

Wow...everything’s been happening so fast lately I’m losing track of time. They broke up my army today Bean and all these other people are becoming commanders. At first I thought great the best way to defeat me is to use my army against me but I found out I’m going to command school 3 years early. I wasn’t looking forward to it, I’m not looking forward to anything. Everything is breaking, the system is wild all these changes are taking place. What is happening? I don’t know, and frankly I don’t care. When we were going to the shuttle I realized we’re taking a stop back home. Maybe I can finally see my family...Actually no, I don’t know how to feel about it...is it possible? Is this really happening? The thought of it scares me. What if everyone changed? What if Val doesn't recognize me anymore? I'm getting butterflies in my stomach. 

I woke up with puffy eyes today, yeah crying all night does that to you. I’m exhausted. Not only do I wake up to puffy eyes but to a stupid paper that says I have a battle against two armies at once. What the hell? How does that even happen? That’s against the rules, damn it! I wasn’t feeling it, battling wasn’t going to happen today, but my army was ready even though they were pissed off and tired as well. Since Anderson bent the rules, so did I. We didn’t fight, while the two army leaders were arguing I had my army do the victory ritual, the computer took that in as a win and we won. After that my army came to have practice but I told them that I was finished because I am. I beat you Anderson, you and your stupid games. No more practices, no more battles, no more bullshit.  

Not sure which to choose...

I don’t know what happened...I was just in the shower, when I was finished I came to grab my towel and Bonzo was there with his friends with my towel. They wanted to fight me when I was naked and I teased them so they stripped down so it can be a “fair fight”. It all happened too fast, where were the teachers?!?! I showed fear but Bonzo didn’t buy it, we fought and it ended with Bonzo on the floor with me kicking his crotch inward. He didn’t move...and he didn’t cry then the meds came, where were they before the wounds? Dink helped me out. Bonzo wanted to kill me. I began to cry, I’m not ashamed anymore. I didn’t want to hurt him! Why couldn’t he just leave me alone? I cried and wept all night. How long will it take before I turn completely into Peter?

CHEATERS! I can’t believe these people!! What the hell were they thinking? Okay, I won 7 games 0 losses I ask for a challenge and they end up getting Bonzo against me but not only that they help him cheat. I don’t care if we won, this was our worst game. I swear Anderson and Graff have a secret plan and they just want to break me and soon they will, no matter how strong I look I’m going to be defeated, I’m scared. I screamed at Anderson today, he deserves it, this pig. I can feel Bonzo glaring at me things aren’t going to go well. I can sense something bad is going to happen. 

Remember Petra? We’re  today against her Phoenix Army. I used to be in that army before so I know their strategies inside out. I’m still worried though...Petra’s my friend and if I win she’ll hate me like everyone else. After we won I saw the fury in her eyes it said something like “I was your friend and you humiliate me like this?” I tried to ignore her...we’ll soon be friends again...I hope

Let's go DRAGONS! 

The army I got was full of noobs, people who didn’t know how to control themselves in gravity. They made me feel really agitated, why would they do this to me? I had 30 inexperienced people and some were very very small, they reminded me of myself when I became a soldier. First practice didn’t go too well, there was a kid named Bean who I started bullying, I did the same thing to him that my commander Bonzo did to me, what Graff did to me, I’m starting to feel sick again...why am I becoming like this? I’m now vowing to never be a farthead to any soldier again. No one really knew what they were doing except Bean everyone else just floating around. It’s been a couple days but things are getting better, I can see improvement. But Anderson, this fart, is making things really hard for me!!!! I’m not allowed trading soldiers with other armies, and now I’m not allowed practice with Alai anymore, goodness what’s next? Speaking of Alai, he’s now part of an Army and I’m feeling far from him, it’s not good. It’s pretty saddening actually the only friend I had is now drifting away from me because Ander-son-of-a-fart isn’t letting us practice with each other. I feel the tension because we’re now technically  enemies fighting against each other...we'll see what happens now... Oh yes i almost forgot to include I have hope my army will do great. 

It's been a while since I wrote in this blog but let's do it...What I hated the most when I transferred was the fact that I wasn’t allowed to train with the Salamander Army or fight even though it was my toon!! I wasn’t qualified enough so I decided to get Alai and train with him on free time. I needed practice and I was going to get it. Everytime the Salamander Army trained I watched Bonzo like an enemy commander would so I can try to teach the Launchies the strategies and get commander practice myself. Bonzo tried to stop me, this fool, thinks he can tell me what to do on Free Play but I threatened to tell on him then he’d get iced and it worked! We started off with around 6 people and more started to join because they started to see results. I was glad, I felt I belonged and there was progress and there was hope. But you know when things always better you know they can’t because they’re too good to be true? Yeah that’s what happened. Launchies started getting threats from commanders if they came to my practices. Commanders started coming to my practices and taking names of Launchies. Then Launchies started to get hit and abused by the commanders, come on though we’re training to save Earth!!! Humans are idiots. I can’t believe we went from 6 to 20 something to 6 again. A lot of older boys then came and attacked us with no gravity. You know what that means? Pain. Of course we won we’re well trained and no one messes with us. Practice was off for a few days. 3 years later after practicing, it was all worth it. At the age of 10 I became a commander myself.