to love and to be loved

“I didn’t want my picture taken because I was going to cry. I didn’t know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I’d cry for a week. I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.”

“You need people in your life that are further along than you, people that are more experienced, people that are out of your league. You need to be exposed to new levels so that you can go to new levels.”

“Don’t explain. People only hear what they want to hear.”

“People never learn anything by being told. They have to find out for themselves.”

““You get depressed because you know that you’re not what you should be.””

“I have spent all my life resisting the desire to end it.”

“You can keep as quiet as you like, but one of these days somebody is going to find you.”

“I spend my days trying to trick my anxiety and to avoid horrifying myself.”

“Stop being tormented by everyone else’s reaction to you.”

“The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.”

“i didn’t know what it was to want, to crave something so badly you feel your soul ripping your insides, trying to reach out for it. i didn’t know what it was to want something so desperately your heart ached at the absence of it. that night, i craved your touch as if you were in another universe, far away from me. i craved your touch so much i repeated in my head, like a spell, like a mantra, ‘touch me’. 'touch me’. 'touch me’. please please please i am begging you, put your hand on my heart, your lips on my neck, your eyes on my soul. touch me, god fucking damn it.”

“How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being?”

“Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy.”

“Nobody realizes that some people expend a tremendous energy trying to be normal.”

“Long you live and high you fly And smiles you’ll give and tears you’ll cry And all you touch and all you see Is all your life will ever be.”

““Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.””

“If the full moon loves you, why worry about the stars?”