thoughts and shit

I finally understood that when a person doesn’t want you anymore they will repeat the same things which you don’t like and hurt you until you leave them

i’m grown enough to admit i’m not the easiest person to love. life put me through a lot, so yeah … i overthink, i get triggered quick, i shut down & sometimes i don’t even make sense. i’m sensitive as hell & i need patience, but one thing about me? my love is REAL.

Unfortunately I don’t wanna be close to anyone anymore sorry.

i love silence. no talking. no noise. just shhh. shhhhhhhhhhh. love that.

the urge of being clingy to avoid abandonment vs the fear that being too clingy will make them abandon me

note to self: stop expecting

I can’t wait to experience love that just keep me soft & sane I’m so tired of being in survival mode