the wandering birds long seek a resting place and drop with weary wings into the sea

and there will come a time - you'll see - with no more tears, and love will not break your heart but dismiss your fears. get over your hill and see what you find there, with grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

I saw love, Simon the other day and it made me cry. it was sooo good. and even if you aren't lgbt or whatever you will still love the movie. I mean I loved it. and it made me realize how little representation lgbt people get because I knew that it isn't exactly fair for you guys but I sometimes just forget that like its a real thing and a real problem that you don't get the opportunity to see people like yourself on tv or in movies. that must be really frustrating and I feel bad that thats the way it is. but im so happy to see movies like love, Simon doing so well because hopefully that can help make a difference. anyways the movie was so so good and I wanna see it again. it was so well made and well acted and the story is so beautiful. 

i have been on spring break with friends for like the past week and it is making me realize how happy they make me. it’s hard to realize that while we are at school and everyone is drowning in work and stress but they truly do make me very happy when we can just focus on relaxing and having a good time. i think this is the first time in a very long time where i can say that i truly do feel happy just because that’s how i feel and not because of some material thing. and it is a new type of happy because it lasts. i feel happy because of the people around me. i think that this is a really great feeling and i hope nothing comes along to mess it up but for now i will just think about the present and not get anxious worrying about what could possibly ruin this for me.

life update even though no one cares: