ig: aliciyahunter

i hope i get it right one day, some day soon

i don’t like feeling mean or upset/angry especially when i know others can feel it too. i feel bad for myself. but ive genuinely just been going through it and don’t feel like dealing with the world

went out on a limb and ended up messaging him yesterday after a month and some days of not talking. we talked and he asked how i’ve been and what i’ve been up to etc etc . told him i was waiting to get my hair done and he says he wanted to see when it was finished. later that night i texted him pictures of me and he said it was cute lol 😭 & now today we haven’t spoken yet sooooo

and if yall saw him yall would see why im going crazy about him!! the man is FINE! i know looks aren’t everything but damn /:

i know they all come back and i’m just waiting for him to. maybe he won’t. maybe he will. i always wanna reach out and just make sure he’s ok but i feel like too much time has passed without us talking and it would be a slap to his face and mine and disrespectful i think? idk HELP ME SOMEONE what should i do??? i just wanna hear him and make sure he’s okkk :( even though he probably doesn’t give a fuck about me and is living his life even though he altered my entire brain chemistry and made me feel insane

our last convo was in the wee hours in the morning about a month ago. him at work and we were talking about what he wanted to watch. he sent the last message and i “liked” it. from there we just never said anything again😂it was fucking weird. we didn’t end things bad or good we just literally didn’t check on each other ever again. i definitely have reason not to message or talk first but him?? idk. i’m glad he sent the last message and not me. it’s not like he left me on read or he is ignoring me so i genuinely don’t dammit know??? i would post stories and he would view and like them but still wouldn’t say anything to me. he kind of just now doesn’t watch anything of mine even tho though i know he’s active on socials.