And so now I’m almost completely convinced I have ADHD.
It makes me anxious. Drugs scare me. Being diagnosed scares me.
Therapy is expensive...but so is the possibility that I may never be able to accomplish/ finish even one task in my life because i refuse to help myself get better.
I also want the peace of mind that it’s not my fault. Forgetting every task given to me after 5 seconds. Not being able to organize my tasks no matter how hard I try. Remembering random useless things from years ago in way too much detail. Running my mouth too hard. Never finishing not one assignment I’m given because I’m always getting sidetracked. Also, just the insistent urge to run in moments that beg you to stay still.
I’d like the peace of mind that I’m not to blame. That I’m normal. That I can be useful.
