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Even sagged a bit in relief when Isak said he would come with him. He knew he was capable, he had shown that much, but if a bunch of men came looking for the dead guy - well. Even didn’t even want to imagine what they would do to him. Especially considering how they beat him yesterday.

He said nothing to the little peck, but nodded afterwards. Knowing Isak was right. It was all pointless getting rid of the body if there were blood all about the place. He did as Isak told him. Got his bloody shirt off, but he didn’t have any other pants to change into. Luckily it was black so for the time being he would be fine since the blood wasn’t visible on it. 

Once he had changed shirts he was quick to help Isak clean up. Keeping a straight face as he went to clean up the blood in the hallway with a mop and bucket. The whole time it felt like his heart would stop on him from overworking. That was nothing compared to the jolt of fear he felt when he heard the elevator down the hall pling. He hurried into Isak’s apartment just in time to hide behind the door and peek out the almost closed door to see three large men coming out. They could be just normal dudes, but something about the way they dressed told him otherwise.

“Isak… Isak, there’s guys… there’s some guys coming,” Even locked the door and hurried into the apartment to find the other, “Grab what you need. We have to go now!”

Isak really should have figured that eventually more people were going to show up when the original man that had been sent to keep an eye on him never reported back to their boss. That was definitely an oversight on his part, but there had been so much going through his head the past hour or so that he really shouldn’t be surprised that he fucked up somehow along the way.

Isak had just finished lighting the clothes on fire in the fireplace when Even told him that they needed to go so he just had to hope that leaving the place with a small fire going wasn’t going to end up burning the entire building down. 

They really needed to get rid of the mop and bucket as well, but they weren’t going to have the time for that. He just had to hope and pray that they didn’t decide to snitch on him to the cops, but he had a feeling they wouldn’t. The people he worked for really would do anything they could to keep the cops out of their business. Eventually, he could come back and get rid of the rest of the evidence. 

“Yeah, I don’t know where I would have been if it wasn’t for her. Or dad for that matter,” Even smiled fondly and cheekily sunk down further on the couch until he could lay down with his head and upper shoulders on Isak’s lap. Turning his back to the room and knees into the back of the couch so he could watch Isak from below. Snacking on that cookie of his. 

“You’re cute. I’m glad you’re my personal assistant and boyfriend,” he cracked up, nuzzling into the younger boys’ stomach. He hoped Isak didn’t mind that he cozied up to him like this. He was always the cuddly type, but he was particularly needy for affection in times like this and his pure admiration for Isak was so evident on his face. He hoped that any doubts Isak must have had the past weeks because of everything that had happened would be laid to rest now. He lifted his hand and brushed a finger along Isak’s cheek, not saying anything but just smiled softly to him.

Isak smiled and felt his heart skip a couple beats when Even got comfortable in his lap like that. Whenever Even would do something like that, he would still have a hard time believing that any of this was real. Or that Isak was worthy of being lucky enough to have someone like Even in his life. He turned his smile toward Even as he lifted a hand to gently brush his fingers through his hair. 

“That’s nice,” he sighed happily at Isak’s words. At least either way today should be good then. They friends didn’t leave? Great! He missed them spending time together. If they did leave? Then he and Isak could make out in the grass to almost no ones bother. Win win.

“It’s like a ten minute ferry ride, Isak. You woulda made it,” he teased, “But I do appreciate you waiting. Always makes me happy,” he murmured, stretching his neck a little to kiss him and let his thumbs stroke the skin on the inside of Isak’s shirt by his waist where he held him.

Isak gladly accepted the kiss from Even, using it as an excuse to further lean his body against his. He was definitely on the more needy side today so the chances of being even an arms length away from Even the rest of the day wasn’t going to be possible. “Ten very boring minutes that could be spent with my boyfriend.”

“Mm… okay,” he agreed, though disengaged. He hated feeling like this. It was a beautiful sunny day and they should be out and enjoying themselves with their pup. Maybe if they could find a quiet spot where they could just indulge in one another in the fresh air things wouldn’t feel that hard. 

They reached a store that would leave them plenty to pick from, but Even paused outside to wait with Moxie, “Maybe you could get some nuts? Tends to be easier to eat,” he suggested quietly. Isak would already know this. Nuts were fattening and easy to just shove down for someone who didn’t want to eat in the first place so ever since getting with Isak it was a go to snack. 

A few seconds later he closed his eyes and huffed. A delightfully little smile widened on his lips as he realized how stupidly dirty that innocent suggestion could sound. He sighed and leaned his forehead against Isak before he could go inside, “Well. You know what nuts I mean.”

Isak’s mind honestly hadn’t even gone there until Even pointed it out to him, but it made him smile and shake his head a little. “It’s not socially acceptable to eat those kinds of nuts in public, Even.” He laughed softly at his own joke before leaning up slightly to kiss Even on the cheek before the turned to head into the store. 

About five minutes later, he returned with a sandwich for himself and the nuts Even asked for, along with a couple of sodas. He figured Even probably also needed a little bit of sugar in him. He didn’t look like he seemed faint or anything like that, but it was better to be safe than sorry. "Alright, let’s go find somewhere to sit.” He bumped his shoulder a little into Even’s before he started walking down the street. 

“I’m glad I came,” he grinned, not even letting go of his boyfriend’s hand as he unlocked the door and got them inside. It was nice that they seemed to be on the same page regarding of what to do when getting home since they were yawning like idiots. 

While shrugging off his jacket and kicking his shoes off he were smiling at Isak before leaning over to kiss him once he was done. Nothing heated, just a loving kiss before he left the hall to get ready for bed, brushing his teeth and getting undressed down to his boxers. 

It was at this point it was clumsy to have a one bed with stairs in his bedroom, so instead of going there Even tugged Isak into the guestroom for them to share. It’s where they usually ended up anyway when Isak stayed over.  “Pillow is ready,” he grinned and invited the other in under the covers with him.

The kiss in the hall left Isak a little hazy with love so it took him a moment to notice that Even had left him there to start getting ready for bed. There was a dopey little smile on his face as he kicked off his shoes and took his jacket off. Then he finally followed Even to the bathroom so he could brush his teeth with the toothbrush he kept at Even’s house. It wasn’t long before he had his own toothbrush there since this wasn’t his first time staying the night and wouldn’t be the last.

“Fair point,” he chuckled. Eskild would scold them for all but two seconds if that before being overjoyed over seeing Isak there. Life right now was good and they were to celebrate that no matter what short sighted people out there thought of them. This was the day to feel the proudest.

“You look really good in those colors,” he complimented his boyfriend’s rainbow cheeks sometime during they walk downtown. Squeezing his hand a little while hip checking him a little, but pulling him back in with his hand, “In fact all of you look like a piece of art,” he snickered, intentionally cheesy since he loved to get an eyeroll out of Isak.

A smile broke out on his face as he rolled his eyes and shook his head at Even’s compliment. It made him blush though, so clearly he didn’t mind the compliment at all. He let out a sigh and shook his head again, “I’m in love with a dork...” He wouldn’t have it any other way though because he could be just as dorky--just in a different way. “And I love having your artwork on me.”

When he heard Isak return outside he didn’t know what the other expected of him. Nor did he know what he was supposed to say. He figured he should still get the hell out of there, but a part of him couldn’t help wonder if Isak would be forced to kill him if he left. He wouldn’t want to put that on him. Neither did he actually want to leave. He felt safe here with Isak.

So after a long painful moment of silence he leaned forward and just gave the other a kiss on the cheek, “Come on,” he urged and made his climb over to Isak’s porch. Swallowing as he happened to glance down in a moment he really shouldn’t have. What did that say about him? That heights made him more uneasy than his lovers bashing another man’s skull in?

Once inside Isak’s apartment he wrapped his arms around his shoulders and hid his face against his neck. Fingers digging into the back of the younger man’s shirt, “Leave with me? In case someone comes looking for that man?”

Isak was a bit surprised by Even hugging him like that, but it only took him a second before his arms wrapped around his small waist and held him close. He nodded his head at the question and started to rub his hands up and down the length of his back. “Yeah, we can leave, baby.” When he pulled away from the hug, he looked into Even’s eyes, “But we do need to clean up before we go. We can’t leave with it looking like this.” There was drops of blood throughout and they still needed to burn their clothes. 

Cautiously, he gave Even a peck on the lips before moving away from him completely and went into the kitchen to find a grocery bag to put their dirty clothes in. He stripped completely down to his underwear in the kitchen and placed his clothes inside before passing it off to Even. 

Even loved when Isak would kiss him. Not just by returning a kiss, but initiate it. Allowing himself to take a little something that he wants even though it’s new to him. That was how one moved forward afterall and Even was never one to turn down a kiss for sure.

“My mom taught me baking and making food since I was very young,” he explained with a little smile, “One time when I couldn’t sleep my mom stayed up with me all night baking to keep me busy and mind off other things,” he explained, “It was before I was diagnosed, but I suppose she was starting to realize something was off.”

He coughed awkwardly and looked down at their hands that were still linked. It felt nice to actually be able to talk to Isak more openly about this, even if the topic was a sore one. 

Isak listened carefully to Even explain how and why his mom would teach him how to bake. He was so thankful that Even had someone like her growing up to take care of him. He couldn’t imagine how confusing things must have been before he was diagnosed. In his own life, Isak couldn’t remember a time before his mom was on medication, but he definitely knew what it was like when she decided to stop taking it. The only word he could think to describe it was: stressful. 

Even looked at him as they walked, thinking over Isak’s request for a moment before giving a little nod, “Sure,” he agreed to it. He could just wait outside with Moxie while Isak went inside to get what he needed. Not wanting to leave Moxie alone outside considering it wasn’t even considered legal to do so.

A tiny, soft smile showed on his lips as he watched Moxie pushed her way outside before them and let her sniff around and do her business as they walked. “I haven’t eaten today,” he eventually told Isak in a moment of honesty. Not that he ever really lied when he was down, but usually he just wouldn’t say anything. He felt sluggish though so he knew Isak would notice eventually anyway. 

Isak looked at Even when he admitted that he hadn’t eaten yet and was always happy when Even was honest about that sort of thing. It had been a horrifying experience the first time he saw Even pass out from hunger and exhaustion because he had no idea what was going on. Nor had he ever been with someone as they passed out before. That definitely wasn’t something he was really prepared for in general. 

They continued that way a few minutes before Even decided that enough was enough with the prepping. He had a promise to keep and a testing of the sturdiness of the bed was something he would very much like to figure out.

Even pulled the covers over himself before moving to between Isak’s legs without breaking their kisses. Already rougher than before, but gentle as first pushed against his lover. Allowing him to get used to it first.  “You’re so fucking hot,” he grinned against his lips before biting down on his bottom lip and pulling at it. His fingers digging into the mattress next to Isak’s head before starting to move. 

He muffled his moans against Isak’s neck, smiles forming when he felt more than heard the bed groan and hit the wall once. When he wanted to hear Isak more he downright bit on his shoulder which would undoubtedly leave a mark.

Isak let out of a soft laugh at Even’s compliment because if anyone was hot right now, it was most certainly Even. They didn’t usually have sex like this, so it was exciting when Even was a bit more rough with him (not that it wasn’t always exciting to sleep with his fiance). Sometimes he liked to be tossed around a little or when they just let loose and did hold anything back. 

When Even bit on his shoulder, Isak retaliated by scraping his nails down the length of Even’s back until he was grabbing at his bottom and forcing Even to move against him a bit harder. He could definitely take it and the sound of the headboard hitting the wall made him smile. The neighbors probably didn’t appreciate it, but Isak absolutely did. 

The fact that no one paid them much mind made it a lot easier to just relax against Isak. He did note a few glances a their way that might not all be of the nicest kind, but at the very least they didn’t get any comments and for that he was relieved. He didn’t want Isak feel shame when he had no reason to so he never pointed it out.

He closed his eyes for a moment when he felt the others’ lips against his forehead. He knew then he was far too tired to do anything but snuggle up in bed once they got home, but he doubted Isak would mind that. The both of them had a soft spot for cuddling more than anything else.

“Shit I should get going too,” Noora realized when she saw that the time was an hour past midnight. They parted ways with Jonas, but Noora took the tram with them and then said their goodbyes when she hopped off three stops before them. “I’m sleepy,” Even pointed out, his head resting on Isak’s shoulder while the tram rolled down the street.

Isak was glad to finally be going home. It was nice spending time with his friends, but cuddling with his boyfriend was going to be so much better. Late night fast food really couldn’t even compare to the comforting warmth he got from resting his head on Even’s chest. 

When Even rested his head against his shoulder, he wrapped his arm tighter around his middle and smiled at his sleepy confession. “Me too.” He yawned then, big and deep, and realized he was definitely beyond sleepy at this point. But luckily their stop was soon and he figured they were less than ten minutes away from getting down to their underwear and climbing into bed together. 

While Isak was in the bathroom getting ready, Even prepared a simple breakfast for them. He was eager about going, but he was hungry so he could at the very least make sure they got some toast and milk for breakfast before heading out.  He also got pan colored stickers attached to his cheeks by the time Isak returned and he was practically beaming while they were eating. 

Once they were done Even waited with his hand outstretched towards Isak by the door. Giving him a cheeky a little eyebrow raise, “You know Eskild will be disappointed if you’re late,” he pointed out.

Isak was always so thankful that his boyfriend could cook and willingly did it for him so often. Before Even, his breakfast usually just consisted of a bowl of cereal because honestly that was all he could manage. He loved that Even was beaming and it made Isak do the same right back to him. How could he not be happy when Even seemed to be too?

The smell of burnt flesh made him wrinkle his nose, but forced himself to take deep breaths. Isak knew what he was doing and Even understood why he was doing it. The mafia might find out at some point who the man is, but disfiguring him would delay them figure it out anyway.

He wrapped his arms around himself and rubbed his upper arms. It was very cold in the room undoubtedly so the stench of corpses wouldn’t become noticeable for the people living in the apartment.  At Isak’s serious tone he simply nodded and backed out of the apartment again and even pushed the door so it was a little closed.

The muffled sound of flesh being beaten into a bloody pulp still reached his ears, but he stood strong. Body turned away from the scene so he could watch the cityscape in below him. The wind ruffling his hair and making it easier for him to take in those much needed gulps of air. To think that they had really had sex just two doors away from an apartment full of corpse was rather sick yet even that didn’t make his feelings for Isak waver. He was confident in waiting for him to return was the right thing for him.

Once Even was outside on the balcony again, he finally finished making sure the man couldn’t be identified in way that was so much worse than Isak shooting him. He was disgusted even with himself for doing it so he was glad the sent Even back outside. But before he did it, he took the shirt off his head so he could use whatever clean spots were left to wipe off the bottom of his boot. The last thing he needed was to trail blood back to his apartment. 

When he was finished, he joined Even back on the balcony with a semi-worried look on his face because this felt so much more make or break for them. Shooting someone is one thing, but fucking up their body after so they can’t be identified is something else entirely because that was something an experienced killer would do. Yes, he killed him to protect Even but it was still beyond messed up what he was capable of doing and hardly even flinching. He only reacted with disgust because he was worried about what Even would think of who Isak had turned into in their years apart. 

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