BRB

I have spent my whole life waiting,

For a moment I thought its elevating,

I waited to be held between their arms,

To look in their eyes, and dwell in their charms,

I waited to share with them my dreams,

To know they wont betray, we aint in different teams,

I waited to be loved and appreciated,

For them to look with love on everything I hated,

I waited for them to wipe my tears,

To hold my red face, and put my hair behind my ears,

I waited for them to pat on my back,

To be there to protect me from any attack,

I waited to love them, to encourage them,

To support them, and be there for them,

And I waited, and waited, and waited.....

And I realized that it wasnt fated,

I was tired waiting anyway,

I witnessed alone every sunset and sunrise of the day,

I thought it was going to be hard on my own,

I thought Ill feel lonely facing the unknown,

You never showed up though,

It took you so long, you were so slow,

And I had to stop waiting for a silhouette,

For a thing I know I will never get,

Ever since then, life smiled at me,

I did everything I thought youre supposed to do for me,

And I lived, yes I survived,

Gave myself everything I thought I deprived,

Turns out I never needed you,

Society blinded us to ever knew,

Appreciate a love story,

But it doesnt necessarily happen to you.

Fuck social distancing.

AWEEEEEEEEE❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I love you too beautiful person! 💜💜💜

Now my 2020 is made, not just my day hahahaha♥️😘

I can't be the best when someone like you exists ❤️

So cheesy but like I'm so not active but somehow I'm getting this? Like do you guys even remember me?

Thank you so much, I really, really appreciate it💜🌵

Aw I love you too❤️

AWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I definitely needed that!!!!

"I swam across

I jumped across for you

Oh what a thing to do

'Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line

I drew a line for you

Oh what a thing to do

And it was all yellow

Your skin

Oh yeah your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

And you know

For you I'd bleed myself dry

For you I'd bleed myself dry. "

She was like the moon,

There was always a part of her,

that no one will ever know,

And the part we knew,

Is sometimes hidden,

And sometimes shining,

And if she rages,

She'll be completely gone,

In the darkness,

Facing what can't be named,

So she can brighten their ways again.

In the black starry nights,

She takes her time,

Showing a glimpse,

After a glimpse,

Untill she evolves,

Into a full moon,

Making all wolves howl,

Partying her return,

And mourning the pain,

She had to go through,

But she is back,

She is back now.

Didnt I say I'll make you come back?

Uhmm, idk, lol, because I'm very bad at taking care of myself hehehe, but I believe I can approve, if anyone disagrees, help us pls haha💜🌵

But check this out :

And this:

Yes ofc!

Y O U. A R E. B E A U T I F U L. T O O.

I was going through a very hard time with myself, the society, the world, and the hate that literally flies in the air, and I had so many problems with who I am, and how I looked like, and like I used to be judged, and still probably am, aren't we all are by those sick people? Yeah Sadly, idk if it was all in my mind, but I'd gone through some situations which made me feel like an ugly cactus.

If you wanna gift something to a lover, what would you choose? A rose or a cacti? Or let's say would you be more happier walking in a garden full of roses and flowers of all colors as the breezy air hits your face or walking through a desert full of pointy cactus as sand burns your feet? Exactly (let's hope you went for the flowery scene or that would be awkward lol😂).

But for me, I'd walk in that hot desert with those 'ugly cactus', the world might see them ugly, some particular people might see that they only bring pain, but for me I see a solid plant, that stands in this extremely boiling weather without complaining(it might talk shit tho) , putting up with all of this shit, it might hurt you as you touch it, but inside of it you see life, you see water, and water in the desert is just a gem for every thirsty human being, as this plant helps those in need without hesitation, and not to mention its flowers, with all of this shit that this plant goes through, it still fucking manage to grow a colorful flower, and nope you don't see it everyday, that plant ain't easy. Lol.

So, I really just wanted to tell people that even for some particular reason you're viewed ugly by some shitheads, then you're an ugly cactus, and that makes you one beautiful human being, it makes you strong, and it makes you one of your kind.

And I got this idea as one of my professors was talking about this plant, and how her mother disliked it and said it was hella ugly, but my professor loved it, because she knew that plant, knew what it goes through, and have seen its real beauty.

So people, fuck others, no really, fuck whatever they think of you, and fuck whatever they put in your heads for you to think that what they say is true, they don't FREAKIN know you, they don't know what you go through, they just judge you, and go stereotyping like a bish, don't mind these hoes, because you're a A BEAUTIFUL CACTUS, OH YES BABY, and you better know that.

So I came up with this blog, I wanted to post happy positive things for all people who are going through some shit, so that they can see hope in this life, I just wanted to help anyone, even if it means helping one person, I would be freakin happy about it, it's just that humans are beautiful creatures, and it hurts to know that they can't see that, so yeah.

But I've been considering changing it, because I was afraid that my message wasn't delivered, you know? So what do you think? But I love it so much so like idk hahaha.

Like I'm an ugly cactus and I'm proud bish, got a problem with that? Thats for the annoying people not for you lol.

- All books written by Dan brown, I love him, but still I got alot of his book on the waiting list as I haven't read yet.

-The Hate u give, that was the last book I read, and I liked it so much because it opens your eyes and shit, and god I cried alot when I watched the movie, I mean if you wanna a review and shit let me know lol.

I agree with you!

And lately I've been thinking of changing it, like choosing it has a way long story and I love it so much, but I've been saying Theuglycactus way too much that it has affected me negatively making me believe what I've been fighting against.

And like I fell in the trap Ive been warning people of, it's crazy.

I should change it, right?

If I were you, I would rush and talk to her about it as fast as possible, I wouldn't really care If I wasnt supposed to know or not, you know now, and you have to react with the information you have in your hands, talk to her, hug her, know why she is in pain, stand by her side, all what she needs now is love and support, and as her bestfriend you gotta be there for her.

I understand your confusion, I totally do, I would be confused as well, because it is something big, and as humans we would never know what to do in such situations.

But let me tell you this, if she is now trying to do it again, and let say it happens, how would you feel? You would feel like shit your whole entire life, because I would do too.

You're a great bestfriend, that's how I feel, please do something about it, please? And if you can then see her now?

And keep me updated please, I wanna know everything, okay? Message me or ask me again, whatever, I wanna know what happens with you.

Oh and if you don't know what to tell her, I'll help you out and we will figure it out together, alright?