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I don’t reply to messeges

The little energy I have left is used for exercising

I can’t sleep at night

But I’m tired all day

I don’t want to leave my bed

I want to shut out the world

I don’t want to be touched, yet, I still crave for someone to just hug me tight.

I cancel meetings with friends

I’m angry and sad and at the same time numb

I can’t concentrate

I don’t shower as often as I should

I just clean my flat, go to work etc because my duteousness is my biggest grit

Am I hungry or just unhappy?

Why does no one truly care about me? Am I unlovable? Why is everything going wrong? Do I really ruin everything I do? Why does everyone leave me? Am I that toxic?  Why am I in so much pain? Is it my own fault? What did I do wrong to deserve all of this? Was being born my biggest mistake? Why am I the way I am..?

Not To Do:

- Kill yourself

- Treat people badly

- Don’t eat

- Continue to hurt yourself

- Cry all day

- Have only negative thoughts

- Be afraid of everything

And more…