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The nature of glass is brittle. But the bulletproof glass is different, it made by a different layers of tough glass stack upon each other with the plastic years between them. Know your strength and don't give up to continue living.

Everyday there are birth and also death.

It's like God have so many stock for it.

So who do you think we are?

Spent our time with YOLO.

80 years our prediction of time. But who own our breath.

This live what's important become nothing.

What we think it's nothing become important.

Knowing God is a must.

Have the truth is a goal.

As long as we find the edges of ages. Who care about the path.

Matthew 13:24, 31, 33, 44 (NET) He presented them with another parable: “The kingdom of heaven is like a person who sowed good seed in his field.

He gave them another parable: “The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed that a man took and sowed in his field.

He told them another parable: “The kingdom of heaven is like yeast that a woman took and mixed with three measures of flour until all the dough had risen.”

“The kingdom of heaven is like a treasure, hidden in a field, that a person found and hid. Then because of joy he went and sold all that he had and bought that field.

Matthew 13:45, 47, 52 (NET) “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant searching for fine pearls.

“Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a net that was cast into the sea that caught all kinds of fish.

Then he said to them, “Therefore every expert in the law who has been trained for the kingdom of heaven is like the owner of a house who brings out of his treasure what is new and old.”

Matthew 18:23 (NET) “For this reason, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his slaves.

Matthew 20:1 (NET) “For the kingdom of heaven is like a landowner who went out early in the morning to hire workers for his vineyard.

“For it is like a man going on a journey, who summoned his slaves and entrusted his property to them.

Matthew 22:2 (NET) “The kingdom of heaven can be compared to a king who gave a wedding banquet for his son.

Matthew 25:1, 14 (NET) “At that time the kingdom of heaven will be like ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet the bridegroom.

For everytime I read them I stayed. The Kingdom of Heaven is not a place but a presence of The Divine.

2 Timothy 2:5 (NET) Also, if anyone competes as an athlete, he will not be crowned as the winner unless he competes according to the rules.

There's a lot of things I've learn since I started to love this kind of sport. The first time I just wanted to enjoy the game, laughed freely and waived some energy to gain more energy. The second I tried my best to win the game and felt okay when I lost the game. That's called fair play. The third I learned how to endure and be partnered with my enemy so together we can still make the shuttlecock flew in the air as long as we could The forth I understood why we need to empowered our self and be focused on the game. The fifth I need to care about the rules and has victorious heart until I really won the game. Satisfy is only a matter of time to endure until the game is over. Sometimes life is like a game. What you need are always ready in Spirit, Body, and Soul.

People aren't lost completely. Same like people aren't grow instantly.

The tree never dry instantly, same like the tree never grow instantly. Are we growing or dying? The things we must know.

There's nothing best in my life that You really show mercy on me

You clearly said that You hate sin because that's not from You but the devil

But You simply said, that's only disease You could heal

You never offer pils or treatments to make it clean

Furthermore, You offer Yourself

You make everything possible like with great elaboration and colaboration

Make Jesus alive and just pour out Your Spirit through all men

What best we could have to save us from deceitful life and wicked behaviour all men have

Is Yourself

You never caused problem because all of us know that we are the problem

Who am I? dare to make false testimony about You

Who am I? dare to make correction about what You did

Who am I? dare to ask everything in emptiness and nothingness

We know nothing and would never ever understand the whole thing

Even in the spare of time from the first human until the last one stand

All I need is Your Grace

I always thinking I live for only eternity and the Kingdom of God. But now I understand that was too cliche.

If the Kingdom of God is a system then the world also have system.

The basic might be quite similar but different. The world move because it must, need so much flesh effort but the Kingdom of God need spiritual effort force by God. You really like it. It's more than you could imagine. More than just passion. It's about spirit that moves through you. But it's all not about you.

Ironically, I also found that the Kingdom of God also sometimes mixed by flesh efforts. This time I realize something about Galatians 4:22, Matthew 6:24, Luke 16:9, Luke 16:11... You couldn't serve two Master. Worldly wealth and the true riches all that matter God could simply give and simply take it away. But you couldn't chase after both with greedy hearts. Because Collosians 3:23-24 say it clearly, "Whatever you are doing, work at it with enthusiasm, as to the Lord and not for people, because you know that you will receive your inheritance from the Lord as the reward. Serve the Lord Christ."  

I’m always thinking that I really fit with my job. Not only in the office, but also after office work. I love what I’m doing right now. Seems like God really make His way in my path. Every time I heard my friends want to resign with all those reason I just respect that believe. At first I think what kind of reason? It’s not a big deal. Money, power, positions, and poor conditions all that matter were cheap. But If I said that people will ignorance so I only speak to people I know close and can accept my point of view. Until one day I’m thinking why I ‘m not thinking about resigning? One because I know what I doing (not always) and I know what I waiting for. But every time I lost I know how and where to go back. One purpose, one calling.

Menyebalkan sekali melihat kebanyakan orang didunia ini menilai dan memperhitungkan yang kelihatan lebih besar daripada yang tidak kelihatan. Bodoh sekali kalo sering kali kita percaya kepada perkataan perkataan manusia yang tidak berujung dan tidak pernah mencapai solusi atau tujuan yang benar-benar jelas.

Akhir2 ini aku dapetin banyak hal dan aku tahu dengan pasti kalo aku nggak bertobat sepertinya aku nggak akan jadi kaya gini dan sampai pada keadaan seperti ini. Tidak peduli hidup dan mati tapi tetap dalam damai sejahtera dan sukacita menjalani hari-hari.

Matius 13:44-46 (TB) "Hal Kerajaan Sorga itu seumpama harta yang terpendam di ladang, yang ditemukan orang, lalu dipendamkannya lagi. Oleh sebab sukacitanya pergilah ia menjual seluruh miliknya lalu membeli ladang itu.

Demikian pula hal Kerajaan Sorga itu seumpama seorang pedagang yang mencari mutiara yang indah.

Setelah ditemukannya mutiara yang sangat berharga, ia pun pergi menjual seluruh miliknya lalu membeli mutiara itu."

Matthew 13:44-46 (UKJV) Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hid in a field; the which when a man has found, he hides, and for joy thereof goes and sells all that he has, and buys that field.

Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls:

Who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had, and bought it.

"Bagi engineer sejati, tempat ini adalah surga". Perkataan itu masih melekat diotak saya sejak tercetus kemarin di kantor tempat saya bekerja. Sejak beberapa bulan yang lalu ada seorang senior di kantor yang ingin saya temui secara pribadi. Namun, karena beberapa hal terkait kesibukan dan ketakutan saya serta rasa malu bercampur segan yang berlebihan akhirnya saya menunda-nunda dan melupakannya.

Beruntunglah spontanitas saya kadang membangkitkan itu kembali dialam bawah sadar saya sampai suatu ketika saya nekat keruangannya sambil lalu berjalan ingin melihat apakah bapak itu sedang berada di ruangan. Tak kurang beruntung, pintu kantor bapak itu terbuat dari kaca meskipun agak gelap tapi tetap terlihat ruangan didalamnya juga keberadaan si bapak. Waktu itu ternyata berkata lain si bapak sedang tidak ada diruangan, anehnya saya justru lega. That’s the power of fear. Stupid.

Setelah beberapa waktu berlalu, ketika suasana hati saya sedang enak, alam bawah sadar saya kembali mengingatkan hal tersebut, spontan sekali ketika saya lewat di lantai tempat ruangan bapak itu, langsung saja saya melihat apakah si bapak sedang di tempat. Dan ternyata ada sedang memperhatikan HP dengan serius. Dengan sedikit keberanian akhirnya saya mengetuk pintu dan masuk.

Mungkin bapak itu sedikit kaget bercampur bingung, siapa anak ini (siapa tahu lupa kan). Namun mendadak rasa malu saya hilang. Tanpa basa basi saya langsung menanyakan tentang salah satu program yang saya sedang terlibat didalamnya (sebenarnya di program tersebut status saya juga masih belum jelas tapi karena penasaran dan jiwa pembelajar saya tergoda untuk melebur dalam pekerjaan tersebut akhirnya bertanyalah saya) yaitu pesawat flying test bed. Waktu saya membuka pembicaraan, bukan hal yang mudah karena saya sudah ceritakan diatas, jadi pertanyaan saya pun agak kacau dan nggak jelas sampai saya pun lupa. Untungnya bapak itu mengerti bahkan akhirnya memberikan pertanyaan pancingan yang menjawab kegundahan hati saya beberapa hari ini tanpa saya sadari. Ternyata kesibukan tidak selalu sinkron dengan keinginan hati. Pada dasarnya manusia sekarang bisa ditipu oleh kesibukan tidak berujung yang sebenarnya dia sendiri tidak nyaman atau tidak menikmatinya. Detik itu juga saya merasa tepat berbincang dengan bapak itu. Tanyanya, “Kamu butuh kerjaan?” Dalam hati saya berkata, ya suatu pekerjaan yang saya bisa kerjakan dengan hati juga.

Singkat cerita kami terlibat dalam suatu pembicaraan yang menarik bukan hanya pengalaman teknis tapi juga pengalaman hidup, mental, pekerjaan, pembelajaran yang dengan antusias saya menyerap semua ilmunya. Dasar aneh, ditengah2 perbincangan hal teknis saya bisa tiba2 bertanya “Menurut bapak, ambisi itu baik atau tidak?”. Lalu katanya, “Selama kita dapat menguasai diri terutama dalam ketiga aspek ini spiritual, emotional, dan intelligence, ambisi bisa kita arahkan dengan tepat, kadang bisa keukeuh, yang positif ya, kadang bisa juga jalan santai”. Gayung bersambut akhirnya saya menemukan mentor lagi yang setidaknya satu frekuensi dan saya nyaman berbincang dengan beliau.

Selanjutnya kami membicarakan tentang kantor tempat kami bekerja dengan kacamata yang hampir sama. Tentu saja jalan yang beliau lalui berkali-kali lipat lebih panjang dari jalan saya namun hal itu tidak membuat saya bingung. Terlebih waktu beliau dengan pengalaman mengabdi 30 tahun berteman dengan orang-orang besar yang akhirnya harus berpisah di persimpangan, menghasilkan orang-orang yang jadi direktur sekarang (walau ada diperusahaan lain juga), yang berpikir picik pasti berkata lalu kenapa bapak itu masih bertahan disini? You get your own answer, time will make you know what most important in the ‘life of somebody’, katanya seperti di awal cerita saya dan sayapun sepakat.

Beberapa yang mengerti akan mengetahui betapa berharganya waktu bekerja di kantor ini. Bagaimana pada akhirnya beberapa orang bisa diterima bekerja di kantor-kantor ternama di dunia, beberapa orang lainnya bekerja diluar negeri dan pada waktu senjanya kembali lagi ke sini. Beberapa anak muda yang bahkan belum mendapatkan ijazah bersemangat untuk mendaftarkan diri mencoba bekerja disini bahkan tak pernah sepi permintaan masuk. Beberapa mungkin juga seperti saya, bermodalkan ijazah baru dan keinginan yang kuat bermaksud melakukan suatu hal yang (siapa tahu) berguna bagi kehidupan umat manusia. Kenyataannya, kantor ini tetap berdiri sampai sekarang.