I’m Just A Sorry Man

But the stain won't fade or go away

No matter how I pray I just fixate

This life just feels like a big bad dream

I don't wanna bring you down with me

If you could hear my message on the phone, if not ok then maybe, my baby, I'll go

Never meant to take you for granted, but I know that I did

God, I hate myself for how you must think about me now

Know how much it hurts to grieve

But please don't hate me if I leave

Like blood it covers over me

And soon the sea shall give up her dead

We'll raise an empire from the bottom of the sea

Something′s growing in my wall

And we were kissing and touching and my teeth are still buzzing

But I guess it didn′t mean anything at all

Too far gone

I could've sworn I used to know

Somebody who looked just like you

The lights in the parking lots would lead us through the night and to sunrise

There was no place that we didn't own or deface

The grooves in the road would spark for us but that memory will rust

I'll swim upstream again, show you all the hooks in my mouth

"Look at how gullible I can be with my fins and my gills in sync"

I think you'll like it, the bubblegum pop assures I'll be shot

I wanna feel Jameson burn and sing along to "Trusty Chords"

I wanna swim out in the ocean with the mermaid one last time

I wanna shoot out the stars if it's the end of the world tonight

And I'm screaming my lungs out

"Please stay with me this time"

Before I change my mind

I’m gonna change my mind

The silence from the street

Your blanket in your seat

The nearly muted TV

There's no answer from you

And your phone blinks with my reply

It's that lump in my chest

And my relief to hear you cry

Let's talk about your friends

Let's talk about the summer

And how you wished it wouldn't end

Did I forget to tell you

How pretty you looked in that dress?

And the first time that I saw you

You cleaned the mess from my head

And I don't mind

If we take our time

No

I don't mind

Point the finger at myself but I think of you

It's in thе past, but I still do

No, I'm not in heaven yet, but it's a bеtter hell than you

We won't prevail

Time and time again this ship has sailed

And time and time again this attempt has failed

My attempts have failed

You were my anchor

I stare into the abyss

The open water is an awful thing

But I'm anxious till the anchor is aweigh

I am a coward masked in courage

And just admitting this will not save me this time

So free me from my tired mind

And let me learn the difference

Between a single tear and the runoff of an ocean

Weak and weary from my predatory nature

So bless me with abandonment in my greatest time of need