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arms crossed, she shook her head and rolled her eyes. “go fight a damn fire or something. cats and small children clearly need you more than i do.” any other time, she would have been understanding of the situation but her hormones were out of whack. “yeah, you failed. nice job. “mini is fine by the way. growing. you can go back to work now.” she walked past him then turned around, “you know, a text or a phone call would have been fucking dandy. i was worried sick about you but hey, i get it. i totally understand. let’s stress out the pregnant girlfriend. it’s fine. it’s no big deal. i need a nap. go back to work.”

freya smiled, putting an arm around her. she wiped jaz’s tears away with her thumb. “i’m okay, i’m not going anywhere i promise. i have SO much to fight for. to live for. you and the peanut.” she frowned, taking jaz’s hand in hers. “yes you are, missy. the most beautiful woman i’ve ever seen. i thank the heavens daily for you.” it was true. everyday, freya thought she was the luckiest woman alive. “no no. i’ll be fine. i just want to be with you. there’s a pump thingy for pain meds so i’m just peachy. how are you? please tell me you slept and ate. i’m sorry this wasnt the day you had hoped for.” she squinted, taking in a deep breath, “however, about the nurse. if you decided to, i dont know, dress up as a nurse, then sure. i wouldnt mind.”

she quickly shook her head, “no no. it’s ok. i get it. i probably should have told you about my ex but he’s a pretty sensitive topic for me so i get it. i DO trust you though and i really do appreciate you telling me. it means a lot because to me, it makes me feel like you trust me too and that means everything.” cadence smiled listening to him talk about his wife. he loved her very much and it made her sad that the other was taken away from him and their daughter. she laughed when he mentioned laurel, “i will certainly take that into consideration. ive never had a great love before but i heard they’re nice. i wish i could somehow bring her back for you. you’re a good guy though, you should let people see that about you.” despite how much she would like it to be, she didnt want to assume that their happy ever after would be with each other. “do you-do you have any of her art around here? i’ve always been really into it, just never good at it.” she chuckled.

“treat me like i’m a human being. treat me like i matter. invite me over because you want me around, not because you want someone to fuck you. i’m more than that.” she chuckled, shaking her head. “i wouldnt be opposed to flowers, but no.” she searched his features for any indication that he wasnt being genuine but she failed to find one. “because you treat me like shit, theo.” her heart broke and she put her hands on both sides of his face, “i am never giving up on you. you are my world.” she dropped her hands and sighed. “just show me you appreciate me sometimes.”

adeline sighed. “i’d rather be dead right now so if that’s any indication as to how i’m dealing then there you go.” her voice was soft and there was no indication that her words were any less than serious. “if it werent for the fact that i dont want to put my parents through losing another child, we wouldnt be having this conversation.” she was grateful but she didnt want him bothering with something that didnt impact him. “no, it’s okay. you..you dont need to bother yourself with it. it’s not important.” more like she wasn’t important. “thank you though.”

“you deserve to be shown love, jaz. i’d say thank you but i believe that i already have everything i deserve. i have you.” freya smirked, raising an eyebrow. “how many kids are we talking here, buttercup?” it wasnt that freya minded having a few, she wanted at least 2 herself. she laughed, nodding her head. “you’re ready for all of it?” she asked, playing with the strap of jaz’s dress. she frowned, tilting her head to the side. “i’d lose everything if i lost you too. however, i cant make any promises since my heart is a little shitty but i can promise to try my hardest to be here to grow old with you.”

“many? oh, there’s multiple.” she teased, scrunching up her nose. she finished off her whiskey and poured herself another glass. “you really should. because i know for a fact she never mentions it because she’s pretty sure you won’t want kids or anything like that. i know for a fact she loves you very much and would do anything to make you happy.” she laughed, which stopped immediately after jaz finished her statement. “hey, yes you do.you bothe deserve love and happiness and you just so happened to have found it in each other.”

it wasn’t that she doubted her abilities, it was just that she didn’t want to potentially screw it up. “no, i-i’m not. it’s just a surprise. that’s all. i appreciate it though, thank you.” she nodded her head, she knew he was right and she chewed on her lower lip. “i agree. and i most certainly do try to get those 8 hours.”

“i’m the same. i always make my grandmother’s recipes and it’s nice having something different.” she smiled as he talked about trying to protect her and hearing it confirmed exactly what she knew: she was SAFE. and it made another feeling abundantly clear: she was falling in love with him. any other time, the fear running through her would have caused her to run in the opposite direction but now she felt a sense of warmth. “i care a lot about you too. a hell of a lot.” she wasn’t sure if she could tell him that she loved him, despite how much her heart wanted her to. hearing what he said, caused a lump to form in her throat. it explained quite a bit though. she was quiet for a moment, looking down at their hands together. “i am so sorry that happened to you and laurel and i cant imagine how hard it is on both of you knowing the person is still out there. i understand not wanting to talk about it but i appreciate you telling me. it really means a lot.” she pressed a kiss to his cheek and wrapped her arms around him tightly. “if you don’t mind me asking, what was your wife like? if you dont want to talk about her, it’s okay, i understand.” she didnt want to ask him to do something he didnt want to do, or do anything that would upset him in forcing him to think about her.

hearing him, she smiled picking up her bag and walking into his room. she set it on the floor and walked over to his bed, kicking off her shoes and laying down next to him. “of course. i told you i’d drop everything and get here as fast as i could.” she kissed him and took his hand in hers. “are you doing okay?” truthfully, she was glad he texted her. if she had it her way, she would be over there all day every day as opposed to the weekends she already stayed over. “i brought my stuff to stay the night if that’s okay with you.” she didnt think he would have an issue with it, but she didnt want to assume either.

she opened her mouth to speak but decided against it. she decided it was best to leave that subject alone. “i’m sure it does. i never said it didnt.” she chewed on her lower lip. she understood what her father was saying but she was stubborn. incredibly stubborn. “i understand. i do. but i promise i will be careful. i’m not going anywhere, ok? you have raised me to never back down from something that i want and i want to do this. i need to do this. i know that it wont be easy for you, but please try and wrap your head around it. i will be fine.”

“you want me? you never fucking show it. how about you show it for once? dont you dare say that. i never said you were a fuck up theo. i dont…i dont feel that way about you at all.” she didnt wanna cry. she didnt want to let him see her cry but it was useless and fresh tears started falling. “just show me that you care. dont make me feel like i’m just some sort of booty call. if you truly care about me, just show me that’s all i ask. you dont need to take me out to dinner every night or buy me flowers but at least treat me like a human being.” she grabbed his hand in an attempt to keep him leaving. “you arent worthless. i dont know what i have to do to get you to see that but you arent. your dad was an ass and he’s missed out on watching you grow up to be an amazing guy. i want you theo. i love YOU.”