Wait For It

There are moments when I feel beautiful and significant and moments when I feel ugly and small. In my book of life there are chapters soaked in pain and chapters filled with joy. I wake up some mornings ready to conquer the day and other mornings I have to force myself out of bed. Life is at times a burden and other times it feels like the sweetest gift.

This is living. This is what it means to be alive. This back and forth journey of becoming authentic and whole. There will be days like today where my heart is heavy but I hold on to the possibility of tomorrow. I believe in the light and hope of the next second, minute, hour – moment. I choose to trust that I will mend. I will grow. I will heal. I will find my way into wholeness.

No one can love me enough to make up for a lack of my own self-love. No one can make me whole. The power and responsibility is mine alone. They can inspire me. They can encourage me. They can walk beside me and help me when I am weak, but they cannot save me. I have to save me. I have to hold myself in my arms and remind myself to breathe. I have to fight for my life, for my peace, and for my joy. 

I struggle every single day, but I know the struggle is just a part of the journey. I’m worth the battle. I hope you realize you are too.

With love,

To those who are feeling anxious, lonely, overwhelmed, lost, confused, emotionally overloaded or emotionally numb may you remember to breathe. Remember that you can breathe in and out until the panic lessens and the calm begins. Remember to give yourself time, grace, patience, and a whole lot of love. Healing is a journey. A journey that is difficult, filled with ups and downs, but always worth it. You are worthy of the freedom healing brings.

Remember that you are NOT unable, inadequate, insignificant, a lost cause, a loser, a burden, a waste of time and/or space. Remember that you are a work in progress. Remember that you are loved. Remember that you matter.

Remember that you are not alone. There are family, friends, and even strangers like me who want to hug you, encourage you, and help you find your peace and steadiness.

Remember that you have been in this place of panic before and you found your way out of the chaos. You will find your way again. We will help you. We will mend one another. Remember to breathe and be gentle with yourself today.

With a lot of love,