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i feel repulsive and like i don’t know enough things and uptight and like i can’t relate to people and like a bad listener and like a flakey bitch

u ever see an unflattering photo/video urself and it makes u want to die? cuz same. jesus christ am i vain

i always forget just how deeply rooted my daily internal struggles are upon my being a child of an alcoholic 

i..am..so..close..to..hitting..rock..bottom.. yay!

I just want to feel fucking worthy

At my gallery internship I've been curating performative art shows and it is fun and cool but also the bane of my fucking existence bc it feels like so much pressure!!! Like ultimately it's not even on me because it's the artists' show and not mine, but I still feel some responsibility in how much people enjoy the show / are they having fun etc etc and it is absolutely eating me alive