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I know it’s been awhile! I kind of just fell out of the fandom and closed my shop. I had a lot going on in my life.

I was trying to take care of my grandfather who had Alzheimer’s while my grandma was trying to sabotage my shop. She would throw away shipments of merchandise and other personal conflicts. My safety, my dogs safety, just not a good time. It was so so so hard but I had to move away from her and my grandpa..who died not even a year later, the same week as my other grandfather died. I wasn’t able to continue going to shows either because my chronic pain got worse and so did my epilepsy. I know there are also a lot of people in the fandom who really really hated me and so they will be happy to read all this if they do end up finding it. I know I was a bit much at times and could be full of myself. I was just trying to fake it til I made it honestly. I closed my shop, I moved back home, I was extremely triggered being home because of childhood trauma. I had a complete break down after having my first ever relationship and being dumped over text and being told that I was everything my mother said I was. I got back into therapy and I’ve been healing slowly. I also found out I was diagnosed with autism as a child but my mom kept it from me. Now im just trying to be honest and venerable? I’m really nervous about posting this but none of you are probably here anymore anyways! If you are, I appreciate you.