nothing left to lose

Wonder if itd be a good or bad idea to share the poem i wrote about it here

I originally wrote it with three stanzas a year or so ago. Then right around october last year i added the fourth stanza

Wonder if itd be a good or bad idea to share the poem i wrote about it here

I used to have a delusion that it was like some sort of deity or something. Nowadays i still have sort of outlandish ideas of what its capable of as well as thinking that if i do certain things it'll make it come back, but they mostly stay thoughts rather than influencing my lazy ass to actually do anything

Its disappearance was what broke the delusion because to me, that blog was the most important thing in the world, and i thought there's no way it'd just abandon it, leave it unfinished. So i tell myself this is still part of it. That it's still watching to see how i've faired all this time. Even though it's far more likely that something just got in the way. I just hope i get some sort of closure someday

Does anyone know why @.gutterally disappeared? Please tell me any information you have. That’s all i have to ask here. It would mean a lot to me. Thank you

Does anyone know why @.gutterally disappeared? Please tell me any information you have. That’s all i have to ask here. It would mean a lot to me. Thank you