in beauty there echoes a speck of our source

I feel like this is potentially the most miserable phase of my entire life and no one can or will help me

I miss my dog, I miss all the friends I've ever had, I miss my cousins, I miss my sister, I miss something even more that I can't name and I don't know if it's everything that's ever happened or something I've never experienced

The other thing about that scene in book 3 that momentarily looks like some sort of vision or glimpse into the future that seems off to me, besides the "I think I'll keep you" comment, is that actually I don't even think "I like you very much" sounds like something Luca would say to Viv either. Especially not years into the future and to the point of long enough for him to look older. He would not say that because that's not strong enough 😭