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people whose parents didnt work in the service industry grew up without the best experience of little leftovers and treats brought home by your mum at the end of the day.

ok I’ve written 356 words today, gonna write at least 700 tonight, then tomorrow I will have to write like 1200 to reach my revised end of July goal which is 85,000. I CAN DO IT!

this job is only contracted to a year but I don’t mind that. at the end there may be a permanent role and if there isn’t I’m sure I can get something else with the year of experience. I am able to risk the year long contract bc I don’t have anything tying me down. so now is a good time to take the risk!

I dreamt about my dog again last night, she was appearing in my yard and playing, then she’d go away and come back again, it was nice, she was leaping through the tall grass

I’m not telling anyone else.. only tumblr and my mum. bc if it amounts to humiliation I can cope with tumblr knowing.

Ok so my horrible interview with the guy who wanted me to get kidnapped in Thailand has somehow amounted to me stumbling into a government education job which if you know are really hard to get …. It’s literally just fallen into my lap. WTF IS GOING ONNNNN. IM GONNA HAVE A FULL TIME JOB!!! THE JOB IS MINE!!!