For this new year, here's my 2025 personal status:
16 menstruations and 112 days of blood
A PCOS diagnose -> a mild one, no cysts but an ovary that does whatever the fuck it wants
Birth control approved, started today, Jan 1st, waiting for symptoms or body changes
Three / Four pants and skirts sizes gained, don't feel so bad because I still look fucking amazing and it kind of was during the 20's second puberty (?), feel more like a women now and less like a girl, if it makes sense (even if sometimes I feel a bit bad)
Hair hairing, blond highlights on my brunette hair that made me want more, maybe change maybe not
Bisexuality confirmed confirmed. Won't specify but confirmed.
Hobbies, more and less. Need to regain motivation. Need to read, write, sew, and play music again. Please.
Family so-so, ups and downs, hoping for an improved relation
Friends, some amazing, some disappointments in people. Overall, I know who I love dearly.
Gained a boyfriend I love so so so much I hope he's my forever and he's my teddy bear and my pastelito and I love him so so so so much. He was my best friend, had some rough patches before we got together, finally got the courage to kiss him and the rest is history. By the way, his hair is longer than mine nearly around his waist. I just won in life.
40 jobs applied between October and December. Only three send emails rejecting me. The other ones, still no answer but obviously rejected too.
Red bulls and monsters drank: too many to count
Final exams done, some complaints, some very good, overall, meh but at the same time great!!!
Gained a scholarship along other people to go in the future to UN student simulations outside my country.
French frenching, starting a new A2 course in February.
Really happy with my college degree, honestly, everything's falling into place right now.
Every day I know more about what I want to do with my life. Such a relief, knowing I was so lost before.
3 out of 12 grapes eaten during the new year's bells (and I'm Spanish, such a shame but I never have been able to finish them)
Started the year laughing, hoping this will reflect during this year.
Overall, I truly hope this year is going to be my year. I need to grow. To cut back online, to invest in myself, to go to a therapist and talk all the shit I have inside and start again. I need to be more around the people I love and love me.
I need to be myself again. I need to believe in myself again.
So, reflecting on my 2025 status...
For all of this, waiting for an amazing 2026.
Finally, my year β‘













