Off We Go

I dont know if this relationship is for me anymore. I know I would miss them but the ups and downs are so hard to keep track off. One min, im not showing enough affection, im not going down on them, no one does things special for them. Another moment, they dont want special attention, they feel like they dont deserve it, they dont give or want to receive any affection. I feel so trapped in my head about this relationship. Sometimes I wish I had never met them or rather, endured a relationship with them. Its so inconsistent and im the one doing the wrong thing or not enough of another.

The way I just sent my girlfriend $1300.... if this doesnt get paid back, im breaking up with her. I certainly cant afford to lose $1300 forever