Smile.

You leave and im being left here alone, i never felt lonely before i met you.

I hate saying goodbye, ive got a lump in my throat and a heavy heart 😔

The one time i get someone who loves me, understands me and is commited to me. He lives 80 miles away? Sure, the distance could be greater, but fuck me it hurts. Why 80 fucking miles away? Ive gone through my fair share of fuck ups, and users and cheaters, all within walking distance. Yet here i am, in tears over the distance, i dont want to have to wait 4 weeks to see him, i dont want to have to persevere through this. I dont even want him to live with me, i could deal with him being 10, 20 even 30 minutes away from me. Just to know that we could see eachtoher a bit more and not have to deal with all the shit that comes along with it. My sister who, btw, is a spoilt prick, has got a boyfriend who she sees 24/7! She works with him and they have the same time off as eachother. Shes not at work and hes here the whole time, and it kills me. Why her over me? Why does everyone around me, no matter how much of a shit person they are, why do they seem to always land on their feet? I hate my job, due to the rotas i work and the shit managment who for some reason have got it in for me, keep putting me on shit shifts, even though ive asked them to try and give me a good combination of days over the weekend every now and again, ive got 4 weeks of random days off because ive apparently done slmething to piss someone off, ive never wanted to leave so much in my life. And then home life! Besides my sister inadvertently rubbing her relaltionship right in my fucking face. I rarely get on with my family, so im just here in my room mulling shit like this over or im at work hating being there but dreading to go home. What on earth am i meant to do, and how the fuck do i do it.

- Tom Rosenthal