final girl

do u think about heaven? do u think about me?

all my boyfriend does is sit on his computer all fucking day and not work a job and not take care of himself

i remember the first time i got high i was 16 and couldnt stop ripping up paper towels until i fell asleep for six hours

and now my best friend just texted me that he doesnt want to/wont be able to talk to me for a while because im horrible at replying i hate myself so so so much im horrible

mine has been a life of much shame

also upset for a completely different reason too, a dumb reason, but i asked my bf to take a shower with me and he said no cause hes playing video games with his friends and my feelings are hurt. i also have a busted tire so he gave me a ride to work today and had to pick me up, but he stayed up all night gaming so he slept all day and was late to picking me up and i just feel frustrated.

my moms cousin died yesterday and his mom was on the way to say bye cause they all knew he was about to pass away and then he died before she could get there and she was stuck in the airport all alone while knowing her son just died im so fucking sad