ファンタジー

a kuso-ka, 2017

I’m feeling disappointed with you guys. totally disappointed. But I’m okay….. i’m just a bit disappointed. That’s all. Even though you guys are my friend, you guys don’t even care about my feelings though. I keep wait and be patient with all those ‘shit’ and ‘lies’ that you guys have made. I kept telling myself “chill lah” but end up I have to face the same feeling. The feeling of being disappointed 🌸

I hate myself. I'm so fucking hate myself because I'm loving you. It hurts. It hurts so much. How I wished that you know that.

This is not about "move on" things. This is about being nice with others, and if you be nice with me then I will be nice to you too. get it?

Do not expect anything from any aspect of me. Do not expect anything good from me because I’m probably going to be a bad person and do not even expect anything bad from me because maybe there will be something from my good side that will leave you stunned.

I hate to cry but sometimes I can’t resist it. Yes I know there’s nothing wrong with crying but for me crying is mean you are weak, loser and you should be insulted. I don’t want people think that I’m a kind like that. I don’t like seem to be so weak in front of others. It’s totally feel sucks. People always said crying can make you feel relief but not for me. I don’t feel relief but at the same time when I’m crying I feel touched because I know there’s some people out there who really cares about me, willing to persuasive and appease me.