ILLMORAINE

Centipede (X)

I'm just sitting here looking at the list, wanting to the play the game, and slowly accepting the fact that I'm gonna have to disable literally ALL of them, figure out which ones are dependent on each other, group them together, and then slowly, painfully, start launching the game with one group added at a time.

That's literally the only way for me to narrow down and figure out which mods are installed correctly and which one(s) are causing the crash, because my crash logger sure as hell isn't telling me.

*long sigh*

The bad news is that the rest of them are gonna be a huge pain in the ass because most of them are all connected/dependent on each other, and if you don't get their load order right they'll throw a fit.

They are not.

If you are a dude and you haven't been taught to do that, or if you've been convinced to stop by some random other source, you are being very gross, and the only reason the people in your life aren't shunning you like a disease-ridden corpse is because they don't know you're being gross. They're living in a blissful ignorance believing that your butt and hands are getting regularly cleaned every time you step into a bathroom, because that's what normal fucking people do.

There is zero excuse for anyone to never clean themselves or wash their hands. It's not "gay" or "girly" to do the literal bare fucking minimum of basic self-hygiene.

Wipe yourselves. Wash your hands. And if applicable, clean the fucking seat of your piss dribbles before you leave.

And while we're on the topic of questionable male hygiene habits: wash your dicks when you shower.

I know you guys aren't doing that as much as you should, as much as the people in your life think you are, because half the men in my life always try to argue with me it's not necessary to be washing that part every single shower. Yes it is. The entire point of a shower or bath is to get the entire body clean, and your crotch is one of the places that ALWAYS gets unclean between showers. If its not residual piss, it's a lot of SWEAT.

Wash your dick. Wash your balls. Wash your ass. It takes five minutes, max.

The time between cho and dark escaping and starting on their rampage doesn't leave enough time for vic to heal a little before making the company

Victim crashed on March 15 2007. The 2011 party we saw in AvA11 was an Anniversary party, and would thus have been held around the original date Rocket the company would've been founded (if not the exact date), and AvA13 gave us the exact date of that party: October 27.

The flashback montage in AvA11 happens chronologically, which means we know the following scenes happened between March 15 and October 27-ish 2007:

-Fixing the Wind vane -Fixing a hole in a roof -Victim sucking at driving a tractor -Mitsi's sheep selfie -Discussing the topic of stick figure creation with the other villagefolk -Victim and Mitsi fishing -Victim and Mitsi dancing at a village get-together thing -Victim's Window Cursor hallucinations -Mitsi discovering Victim's Trauma Doodles -Victim and Mitsi's rocket picnic -Mitsi getting the idea for the repair stand -The repair stand itself

That's a lot of stuff, but it's happening over 7-ish months.

This lineup of events heavily suggests some things to me:

- The entire farming and settling into the village part of it looks to be happening in spring or very early summer.

- Victim is only shown to start struggling with his past after he's been in the Outernet for some time.

- The small amount of time between Mitsi learning of his past and them establishing the repair stand/Rocket leads me to think that she might have come up with the idea of the repair stand as a way to help Victim: by distracting him with things to do and other things to focus on than his memories. This could've been her trying to help nudge him in the right direction of building a new life and new experiences that she thought would eventually dull or bury all of the horrible old stuff he lived through. This is a common tactic used by close friends and family of people who've gone through terrible trauma: you can't erase or undo the memories and pain that person is stuck with, but you can help them to keep living afterwards. To reestablish a new normal. Only time can take the sting out of those sort of wounds, but it can't if you pick and fuss at them.

(and we see in a later scene that this worked, regardless of if it was her plan or not, as Victim walked right by a phantom cursor in the window of Rocket corp without even acknowledging it.)

Thus I personally believe these events happen as so:

March 16 to June - Victim's time settling into the village, learning new stuff, getting/building a house, becoming closer friends with Mitsi, etc.

Early June - This is the onset of Victim's first birthday, on the 3rd. AS the 1 year 'anniversary' of his creation draws closer, his past starts to haunt him more and more, disrupting the peaceful new life he's trying to live.

Mid June - Mitsi discovers the doodles, and Victim tells her about his past.

Late June to Mid July - The rocket picnic scene. It could just be the music at this part, but this scene always felt like it was hinting at the romantic development of their relationship. If this is the case, I believe Victim haring his past could've been the catalyst that brought the two of them closer.

Mid July - Mitsi's idea for and the establishment of the repair stand.

Late July to Late October - The repair stand is active and earning them a lot of money, potentially due to a growth in popularity over time. The revenue, or success, or popularity, of the repair stand eventually results on Victim and Mitsi deciding to upscale into an actual company.

I don't think the intention of the story was ever for Victim to heal that much before they made the company. I think the company WAS the main way he healed. The company and Mitsi were the two biggest things that got his new life going so well.

Which is why Victim fell apart so completely when Mitsi died: the entire life he'd built had revolved around her. Without her, he struggled to run the company, and it started failing, badly.

Both of his pillars of stability were taken out in one fell swoop. Because let's face it: without Mitsi or Rocket...what did Victim even really have left? Those two things were his new life. Without them...he was right back to being nothing but the stick figure who was made entirely to be a plaything again.

Agent was arguably the only person who could've tried to stop his spiral, which was never going to happen because Agent had his own painful loss (and likely a huge amount of guilt) to try to deal with. He wasn't mentally well enough to be in the position to help Victim.

This is the tragic flaw in what I think was Mitsi's plan. When you encourage a traumatized person to throw themselves into a thing, and then that thing falls apart, they fall apart with it. I don't think Mitsi ever spared a single thought to the question of "What will happen to Vic if I'm gone?" because I don't think she ever expected or ever through she would die. I think she thought she'd always be with him, I think she, in her potential nativity, thought they were untouchable or inseparable.

I think she tried her best to be a good best friend, and unfortunate circumstances ruined all she tried to do for him.

TL;DR: I think Victim did heal a little before he and Mitsi made Rocket. I also think he healed a lot more afterwards, and this way of healing backfired when Mitsi died.